Two & a Half Weeks Have Gone By

I'm doing o.k. I'm still emotional, and I can easily find a reason to cry. But things are so much better than the first week. My body feels good. I'm still terrified about the whole incision and the idea of having stitches inside of me, but when I don't think about it, I'm o.k. I can get around more and I have more energy. I'm not taking the pain killers like before either. There are periods throughout the day when I feel like I need something, but other than that it's all good. With these hots days and periods of sunshine, I wish I could go swimming. I'm not sure if I'm allowed to do that or not?

Amberly is wonderful. Last week I was getting really nervous and scared that she was going to become colicky. There were a few days where I felt like I had to hold her all day and comfort her. But then I tried a few different things, and swaddling seems to work the best. She's been great at night too, sleeping stretches of 4-5 hours at a time. She is becoming more alert and she's even making happy noises when she's awake.

My 30th Birthday was yesterday. I was kind of sad for the whole day. Mostly because I was home all alone. Dave worked half a day and then he took Caleb away for the weekend for church camping. I encouraged him to go, but when it came time for them to leave, I was beside myself. I hate being home alone, and to be home alone with a newborn, I don't know it just wasn't how I wanted to spend my birthday. My good friend Valerie came over last night to spend time with me, which was great, I was able to stop crying! And we watched 27 Dresses and it was a good laugh.

Today I haven't done much at all. Just watched a couple of movies on the tv. It's too hot to go outside! Amberly is being a bit fussy, but I've gotten some great shots of her. Here are a couple of the ones I most like.This last one here she's wearing the adorable sun dress my Aunt bought her. She's my new cabbage patch dolly! Ahhhh isn't she just so cute, lots of smooching goes on here!

July 3rd

Well, as most of you have heard, I had a beautiful baby girl on July 3rd. You will all laugh at the beginning of labour for me. As you may have noticed I posted that Huggies commercial on July 3rd. Well my water broke because of that, seriously. I was laughing so much about it, and then all of a sudden, I stood up and there was that odd sensation and then, ooppps, my water broke! I first I managed to get upstairs and called Dave. Then I called my parents and told them it was time. This was all about 2:10pm in the afternoon. I started to get really nervous. I finished getting things for my hospital bag and Dave got home in good time. We called Christa (Caleb's sitter) and then we called Fern to ask her to pick Caleb up from Christa's and take him home where my parents would be waiting for him.
We got in the hospital at 3:15pm, at this point I was getting contractions about 6 mins apart. There was thick meconium in the water again (like with Caleb), so in triage, they hooked me up to the monitor and then the nurse came in to check me to see how dilated I was. It was then where she discovered that the cord was down around the face of the baby. It was at that point panic set in and I was terrified. No one told me what was going on, I just know that little triage room was loaded with nurses giving me needles, taking off all my clothes and jewelery, putting oxygen on me and all the while the first nurse still had her hand up in me. It was not fun to say the least. She rode on the bed with me, on me, and in me. She was holding the baby's head up. It wasn't until I read O.R. on the door of the room they wheeled me in that I knew I was going to have a c-section. It was terrifying. They rolled me on my side and tried to give me a spinal, which was so painful and scary, after some time, the man gave up and looked me in the eye and said, "I'm going to put you to sleep" At that point I was o.k. with that. She was born at 4:09pm. I was in the hospital less than an hour before Amberly entered the world. Dave wasn't able to see either. I just remember coming to and a nurse was in my face saying, "you have a beautiful baby girl" I was so confused. I didn't know where I was really. Then I got into the recovery room and saw Dave sitting in the corner holding a pink bundle. I had to ask about her, her weight, what she looked like and if she was perfect, because she was so wrapped up I couldn't see her. She only weighed 6lbs. 11oz and was 19&3/4 inches long. Her size alone was another shocking thing for me. Almost half of what Caleb was!

Now I was in the hospital for 3 days. I didn't enjoy it, and recovery really sucks. I'm an emotional wreck, I feel completely overwhelmed and scared and sad, I feel guilty when it comes to Caleb, I really missed him. When I got home he didn't want to have anything to do with me, and I was so heartbroken. Last night he finally cuddled with me while watching his tv show and I just sat there crying. Even now, typing this out makes me emotional. Life is going to be tough for the next few weeks. I can't lift Caleb, nothing more than Amberly they tell me. Not only is life hard for me, but it is for Dave too, I'm completely relying on him. He has this week off which is wonderful.

Anyway, I don't know what else to share with you all for now. Once I have more time, I'll post pictures. I think she looks like Caleb at birth. But I have a baby girl. Who would have thought!

Huggies Commercial

I saw this commercial and died laughing! Ahhh, I laughed til I had tears. Been there, done that! ha ha ha

The Hair Cut

Caleb got his first hair cut on Saturday June 28th. Christa did it in her home. He did surprisingly well. I asked her not to cut it too short because I want him to still look like my little baby. So here is the before and after shots. I didn't get too many because I had to hold him while she cut his hair.