Belt Me In

I have to wear that belt :( I was really out of wack today. The issue is my right hip, and pelvic area. She had a lot of adjusting to do today. To the point that she suggested that I don't run. But if I don't run, I can't play baseball. So in the end I managed to get the o.k. to try running with the belt and see how I do. I am feeling discouraged about it. It's not even May and the activity that I really enjoy hasn't even officially begun and I'm already being told that I may not be able to play. Grrrr.

On the bright side, the weather is amazing out there!

Am I Too Old?

Last night we had an "exhibition" game against the other Elmira ball team. It was the first time I full out played baseball since fall 2007. It was a test to see how my pelvis was going to take it all as well. I've been seeing a physiotherapist for the past 3 weeks now, she's been adjusting my pelvis and giving me exercises at stregthening my core muscles because this is what is causing my groin pain. She's recommended a belt for me to wear, but I'm vain. It's ugly, and you have to wear it around your butt. So I am determined to get these muscles stronger and avoid this belt. I thought I was doing well, last week she told me that I was getting stronger and because I've gone longer in between groin pain we thought it was working. Until last night. I don't know if it was when I hit the ball and turned to run to the base, or when I went to run for a ball in the taller grass, but by the time I got home I was in a lot of pain. I couldn't lift my left leg to get my sock off. I sat in a nice hot bath and then went to bed. As usual, I woke up this morning with no pain at all. It's bizarre. I have another appt. this morning, so I'm sure she's going to want me to have this belt. But my next game isn't until 2 weeks time, and I want to take those weeks and continue my exercises and have the game and then see. I probably will have my appt. the next day after the game, so I can get the belt then. Dave thinks I'm crazy and that I should just get this belt now.

On top of all that, my elbow and my shoulder is sore from throwing. I think 30 brings a bundle of life experiences that include broken down bodies!

Huh?

what is the big difference between Twitter and Facebook status??

Relief, Maybe?

I chatted again with Christa, told her all my anxeity and fears, and she told me that she was there once and knows exactly how I'm feeling. The way she left the conversation was she told me to stop worrying about it and leave it with her, she will see what she can do for us. I am just praying that this will work out, we love her, and she adores Caleb like crazy. Here's hoping.....

Fresh Air = Sleep

This past week has had some amazing weather. We have spent 2/3 of our days outdoors, and boy it tuckers out Caleb. All week he eagerly says goodbye to me when I take him to bed for his naps. We've had many trips to a variety of different parks, or we just hang out on the driveway while Caleb "mows" with his bubble mower. I'm trying to utilize this great weather before I have to return to work in July.

I've had a difficult week emotionally. Dave had to work overtime this week, so he wasn't home much at night, that makes for a long day. But I did o.k. with that, what I am focussed on and troubled by is our whole child care come September. My amazing baby sitter has always told us that she only has room for Caleb. July and August is o.k. because she loses a few kids, but come September they all return and we are stuck without care for our kids. We didn't think much about it, in hopes that something would work out. But nothing has changed. I mean we could leave Caleb with her and find something for Amberly, but I don't want to seperate them. On top of this, I want to switch to part time maybe. Everything is so up in the air, I haven't talked to my boss about it yet, and this week after a discussion with Christa (babysitter) about a few different scenarios, I have realized that we'll have to find someone else. I'm devastated over this. I can't sleep at night, and I've had a few good cries over it. For Dave, it's not a big deal, we find another person and move on. For me, I see how much Caleb loves Christa, and how much she loves her kids, and I don't want to take that away from him. It's our first decision that will greatly affect our children. Plus, if I do only part time, it may be hard to find someone who is willing to take on part time kids, especially if they really want to fill full time spots.

It's a huge dilema, and I'm really trying to leave it in God's hands. I mean we trusted him when it came time for me to go back after Caleb, and he totally provided with an amazing lady. I just need to trust that He will do the same this time around. I think it's even harder this time because there isn't an end of work in sight. I'm not going back pregnant this time. So it's really hard.

We've hit a few milestones lately. The biggest one being that Caleb has been a whole month in real underwear. He's gotten a special ribbon from Christa and he's just our big boy! He tells us if he has to poop, but he still doesn't tell us about pee. But he's a kid of routine and we rarely have accidents, we go to the potty as routine and he holds it until that time! We have had accidents of number two's during nap time, but I can count them on one hand, which is good for a whole month! Amberly is crawling all over, and is now pulling herself up on the couch and bookcase. Ahhh, she's a handful! But we love her to bits!

Today we're heading to Mike and Joy's for dinner to celebrate Mert's birthday. So I better go and get the kids up from nap and us ready to go.

Tackle

Easter has come and gone already. The time is flying by and I'm really not looking forward to July. We had a busy weekend, we went to Orangeville on Friday and spent the day with my family. We got an early start and attended the 9am service at the Baptist church. It was great, the kids did great in unfamiliar territory. The service was much different than other years, but I still really enjoyed it. Then afterwards I met up with friends I haven't seen in awhile, one being Deb which was a nice surprise. Benji and I hid eggs out around my parents property and once Caleb woke up from his nap, he and the girls went on the hunt. It was so much fun, the girls were great with Caleb and helped him experience the joy of finding eggs for the first time. Saturday we had Steve and Christa with Cara over for dinner. After dinner Christa and I thought it would be fun to decorate eggs with the kids. Lesson learned....don't decorate eggs with 2 year olds! Then on Sunday we went to church and then had Mike, Joy, Fern and Mert over for lunch and the afternoon. Amberly is so active now. It's exhausting! I can't sit on the floor without the two of them tackling me and wanting my attention. And everything Caleb does, Amberly tries to do it as well! It's funny! They both are sleeping and I get a bit of "me" time. Gonna go and enjoy it!

Amazing

It's official, Amberly is now crawling. I find it so amazing how it just clicks in their brains. Yesterday she took 3 paces forward. Then stopped. Then started up again and never looked back. She's going everywhere. This new found independence is taking a toll on Caleb. He thinks because she's mobile means freedom to tackle her, boss her around and push her down if need be. This will be another mountain I must climb. Teaching them that they need to love one another gently, not rough!

Caleb Truckin' in the Muddy Waters

This is what Caleb spent most of the morning doing yesterday. He was completely soaked! He had a blast!

Just Daily Discussion

More of my cuties.

Sibling Rivalry

I know I know, it's not good that you hear me laugh, I was just shocked that he actually did that while I was filming and it caught me off gaurd!