It was Lovely

Our week was wonderful. I didn't know what to expect with this cottage that we rented. I'm so used to spending a vacation in a tent, what a pleasant change we encountered. It had all the comforts of a home, but it wasn't home, it was a nice relaxing change. The kids loved it. We went to the beach every day, we fed chipmunks, watched the rabbit graze the grass, swatted mosquitoes, played games, watched movies, ate good food. It was an amazing, restful time.

I think my favourtie part was seeing my husband actually relax and see his enjoyment on his face. At home, we're so busy with things, having to be in places at certain times, and at the cottage, I could watch my amazing husband lay on the floor and put a Dora puzzel together with his daughter, and sit at the table and colour with his son and listen to the kids just "chat" with him. Don't get me wrong. Dave is an amazing father, he always spends time with the kids and helps with them entirely, but maybe the difference of this past week, was that maybe I was able to actually sit back and watch his relationship with the kids, something I don't normally take in while at home. Here they are the 3 of them. This cuddle routine happened almost every night.
We stopped in at the local convenience store to buy a bag of peanuts to make friends with the chipmunks. The 2 kids waited patiently on the steps for them to arrive.
This was at the beach we went to every day. The kids again loved this part. If you were to ask them now what their favourite part of the cottage was Caleb would say splashing in the water and Amberly would say "Beach".

On Wednesday we took a day trip to Port Elgin. I wanted to see Deb and Shaun and their newest edition William. What a cutie he is, very much like his big brother I think. While there, we also took the kids to the beach and rode the little train around their part.

I think we'll do this again next year. With a little babe to watch, I think the cottage idea is much more appealing than tenting for a week. Although don't be surprised if we change our minds when the time comes.
One funny story....There was a deer head mounted on the wall in the living room. How the kids didn't notice this right away is beyond me, but it wasn't until Dave said "That deer is plugged in" that they actually looked up and saw it. Literally at the same time, they both had panic appear on their faces. Dave climbed the ladder that was close by (it was leading to a loft) and pushed a button, and the darn deer actually sang. It opened it's mouth and started to utter "I'm caught in a trap" all the while swinging his head up and down and side to side. Well, Caleb was totally terrified, he ran into the kitchen screaming. So quickly Dave shut it off. I was able to calm Caleb down and took both kids to the bathroom to brush their teeth (yes this all happened just before bed!) Dave turned the tv on, and the sound of that sent Caleb into another panic "He's doing it again Mommy, he's turning it on again Mommy" Poor kids. Another day or so after that, we discovered the deer was connected to a microphone, so I was able to sing "A B C" into it, and that was o.k. the kids didn't run from the room, but they both continued to stare at it with fear in their eyes. Amberly would go to bed and look up at it, and I told her to say nite nite to it and so her little voice would tremble a little bit and say "nite nite deer" It was hilarious. If I were to ask Caleb to tell someone about the deer, he will say "No, I won't talk about the deer Mommy".
It's things like this that I want to remember. I love my kids DEERly!

Heading Out for Holidays

Motivation. I'm trying to find the motivation to actually start the process of packing and getting ready for our week away. This year we've rented a cottage up the Bruce Pennisuila. It's a new adventure for us, something we haven't done before. Our friends are heading up to Lake Superior with out us this year, and although there's a big part of me wishes to be going with them, I'm glad we'll have beds to sleep on and a retreat from rain if need be.

So instead of folding the newly dried laundry I'm sitting here, blogging. I know I should get in gear, get our clothes folded, then wake the kids up from nap and start packing a week's worth of clothes for each of us (it's always more than a weeks worth, try like a months worth because you never know what will happen with a 3 and 2 year olds!)

We hit the road Sunday. Tomorrow morning we'll spend getting ready, getting groceries together and then Dave and I have a wedding to attend for the evening. Sunday I'm sure we'll be all miserable trying to make sure everything fits and that we in fact have EVERYTHING we'll need. But once we're in the van and on our way, I think I'll finally flip into holiday mode. It's a lot of work getting ready to go away for a week with children. But I know in the end it will all be worth it! (and we're only 20 mins from civilization as opposed to an hour in Superior, so if we forget something, it's not a big deal!)

Our God is Greater

Learned this song this morning. Amazing words....

My Baby Girl is Two Today

Amberly turns 2 today. I got a little choked up this morning watching her play with some of her new babies and equipment. Maybe it's these crazy pregnancy hormones or maybe it's just the realization that my baby girl isn't a baby anymore. She's quite independent, spunky and adorable to boot, and Dave and I just love her to bits. She's full of energy and attitude! She makes us laugh unexpectedly, like today when she said "Caleb don'ted me" or she gets this deep tone in her voice when she's about to agree with you and out comes "O K" like a monster. She's my little girl. I find it hard to believe that it was 2 years ago already that I experienced that crazy labour and delivery. It's not something I look back on fondly, especially now, knowing that I'm in for something unexpected again in about 12 weeks. But I do remember seeing that tiny little girl for the first time, all wrapped up so tight in her daddy's arms and asking Dave, "Is she perfect?" She was such an alert little girl, watching her watch me in that hospital room. Even though it was a scary delivery and hard to forget, I got the best thing out of it, and I know it was all worth it, and I would do it all over again for the precious miracle that God blessed us with.

Yesterday began her birthday festivities when my whole family came for the day. We celebrated not only Amberly's birthday, but Brooke's 5th and Buddy's birthday as well. We all went over to the pool and swam for a good hour, then back to play inside and out. We had a pizza party really, and it was just a fun filled day. Amberly was spoiled with a couple of babies, some new clothes and jammies, an outdoor chair, Dora playdoh and a book. She also aquired some money which we used today by outfitting her with her very own life jacket. Tomorrow we'll have Dave's parents, Mike and Joy and some of our other friends over with their little ones to celebrate as well.

We had a great Canada Day. We headed on an adventure to a place we've never been before. We went to Downey's Farm just north of Brampton. I've never been there before, but used to drive past it often in my younger years. It was a strawberry festival and admission was free. It was a lot of fun, perfect for the kids they thoroughly enjoyed themselves. Meetings new animal friends, playing in sand, climbing on ships and tractors and watching dogs run crazy after balls. We had fun. The picture above was done by moi! We were heading out to a baseball game, and because I miss the fireworks (way too late for our kids!) I thought I would make the game festive, and the kids loved it!

Changing it Up

Had a bit of fun playing around with my blog settings, as you can see.

It's a Monday and once the kids are in bed, there isn't much for me to do. Tonight Caleb had soccer. As each week passes, he seems less interested in being there, and it can be a little embarrassing. Once the game starts going, he's in there running and chasing the ball, but the first half of warm up exercise and activity, he doesn't want to participate. What to do?

I had an ob appt. today. To my shock, I gained 8 pounds in 4 weeks. I was not impressed, actually a little freaked out! That has never happened to me before. The doctor told me not to worry about it, everything is normal, all blood work is coming back regular, my bp is normal. He chalked it up to either being water retention with this heat which he said in the summer months weight will go up and down or he said it could be a sign that I've got a big baby. But he also told me not to stress out about it. I don't know, I'm a woman, it's hard not to stress out about that! Everyone around me has commented about how big my belly has gotten just over this past week....I don't know! I need to take a picture of this belly of mine, I haven't yet taken one of this pregnancy!

Amberly has learned the art of tattling. It's quite funny. She'll come to me and say "Mommy, Caleb hurt me" or "Caleb pushed me" always something about Caleb. Yet, Caleb may have touched her, but she's mastered the art of dramatics! It becomes hilarious to me when she blames her Daddy for something. She came crying to me the other day telling me that Daddy pinched her. I asked Dave what happened and he said that he told her to watch that her fingers don't get pinched in the door. Funny how she can put on an oscar performance over nothing. She's also doing this at Christa's. She's too little to know when she's not telling the truth, so at least she's using her words instead of having a physical reaction, but we need to work on what is worth saying and what is worth just moving on with.

We're gearing up for Amberly's 2nd birthday this coming weekend. Should be fun. Then summer officially begins as we enter into a very busy July where we have no weekend that is free, we're going to be off in different directions until August rolls around. Crazy times! But fun times with great chances at making lasting memories.

Finally

For some reason, I have had issues posting pictures, so here are a few....
Caleb watering his watermelon plant.

Here's Amberly bringing her pumpkin plant over for some planting!

Here are my 2 gorgeous babes, they are getting so big. I love this picture!

Could It Be?? A Potty Genius??

I may be jinxing this but what the heck. Amberly is doing amazing with the potty! It all started last Tuesday (not even a full week has gone by) when Christa happened to put Amberly on the toilet to just humour her when low and behold Amberly peed on command! She was so excited she called me at work. We decided to continue on down the road, I pulled out her Dora Easy Ups and sent some with her on Wednesday. Christa reported that Amberly successfully peed 4 times that day. (still having accidents obviously but still she was going for her) Thursday was a long day, she sometimes would go, and sometimes not go, but I perservered. Friday, she stayed with my friend for the morning and successfully went for her, staying dry that whole morning. I put her in a diaper for her nap, which she wet, but continued dry in the pull ups for the rest of the day. Saturday she went with Caleb to my in-laws trailer for the weekend, not sure how she did, but she continued to use it. Today, she actually started telling Christa that she had to go! Even when I got there to pick them up, she was finishing her snack, and got down and in a panic said "Mommy, I go potty" and she ran to the bathroom! We got home and she pooped on the potty for me, and continued dry! I'm just amazed! If I can pull this off with out a hitch I'll be so thrilled. However, I'm not pulling out the panties just yet, I figure if we can go another week of this, then we'll make a special shopping trip to the store for her to pick out some special ones!

My weekend was wonderful. Friday was a long day, I had to go for my 1 hour bloodwork so my friend took the kids for me. Then after the kids naps I took them to Walmart to get Dave a Father's Day present. Caleb picked it out all by himself, an xbox game. Then home again to see a glimpse of Dave before heading out for the annual Daycare party. We have the best babysitter in the whole world. She gave out gifts, planned games and prizes and made a speech thanking us all for having such wonderful children! ha ha ha! Saturday morning Dave's parents came bright and early and took the kids to their trailer for the rest of the weekend. Dave was in a ball tournament, so I had the whole day just to myself. It was great. I did an extensive clean of the house which wasn't so fun, but then I went out shopping and found a few new maternity clothes to wear, and picked up my Dad a gift. Oh, and I went to Burger King for some take out. I know it sounds terrible, but I never go, Dave would never take me, and I just craved some onion rings so bad! Then I spent the afternoon watching movies, taking a nice long bath and just doing NOTHING!! Dave got home after 5pm and took me out for dinner. It was so lovely! We got home and took a nice leisure walk around the neighbourhood and watched a movie. I think my most favourite part of this time was Sunday morning. I was able to get up at my own pace. It was quiet. I had no demands. I just crawled out of bed, made a bowl of cereal and watched anything I wanted on tv. I sat and did nothing for a good hour. I never get to do that anymore. I'm not a morning person, I don't enjoy getting up and having to get things done right away, but as a mother, doing nothing is not possible anymore more unless I get up at 5am and I'm not about to sacrifice sleep! Sleep is becoming harder to find these days!
Dave and I headed up to pick the kids up at the trailer and supplied a pizza lunch for his Dad, then we headed to my parents for the rest of the day. It was a beautiful day, and the kids had a great time. I'm sad the weekend was over. Maybe I'll get this opportunity again sometime, but for now, I'll just look back on this past weekend with fond memories!

Nothing Too Eventful

There hasn't been much going on in our household lately. I guess we have been just tied up with the normal day to day routine. The summer weather brings many commitments, Caleb has soccer Monday nights which he's loving. Dave has baseball 2 days a week, and church meetings and stuff seem to fill our weeks. It's exhausting. My doctor appointments are all in full swing now, and work becomes interesting socially, as I find it hard to work certain people and I struggle to appreciate some individuals. I do manage to have a good laugh or two during my time there which makes it all worth it. Today my boss gave me a brand new bike helmet for Amberly. It was too small for her daughter and she wouldn't take any money for it. Val took a look at the helmet sitting on my desk (might I add my boss's daughter is 5 and it was TOO small for her) and asked if I biked to work or something! I can be witty sometimes, so I replied with a no I didn't I drove, I always feel safer while wearing a helmet behind the wheel. We both laughed really long about that!

I was going to post some pictures of last week. The kids had grown some pumpkin and watermelon seeds at Christa's and we took them to Grampa to plant at The Acre. But for some reason it won't let me upload tonight. I'll try again another time!

Well, I guess I better go and get ready for bed. It's been a long day....

Growing Up Way Too Fast!

Tonight I had a Kindergarten Information night to attend. Being there, I was flooded with emotion. Thoughts crept in my mind, "what if Caleb gets bullied?", "what if he has an accident and get embarrassed?" or "what if he doesn't like his teacher?" And many, many more as they continued to discuss things. At the dinner table tonight I was just watching him and thinking to myself, he's entering a phase of life that is a long long time. School is a long time. I, myself, didn't always have the best experiences at school. Watching Caleb made me sad, knowing that my first born is now growing up so fast, I feel like I'm losing a bit of him, and at this moment I can understand why mom's want to keep their kids home with them and not send them to school. Ahhh, it's just overwhelming.

These past two weeks have been terrible. Going back to the long weekend, Amberly became really sick on the Sunday night, vomitting through the night and on Monday. I stayed home with her on Tuesday while Caleb went to Christa's and Dave to work. Everything was going well that day until that evening she vomitted again. Dave then stayed home Wednesday morning but I then had to take that afternoon off so Dave could get to work. She finally seemed all better by Friday. Dave had a project he had to do which required him to work Friday night and Saturday. Well, wouldn't you know it, I become totally sick Saturday. I was vomitting consistantly every hour or 2, not being able to keep a mouthful of water down. Thank the Lord my in-laws were home for the weekend as opposed to being at their trailer, so they came and took the kids for me. At one point I was about to call my mom and ask her to come by any means possible because I was scared about being alone. I was shakey and just not good at all. But yet again, just moments before I was going to make the call, Dave called and said he was on his way home. He then took care of me. But I was out of it. Sunday morning I woke up really sore, but it was over. That's not the end of the story. Dave woke up on Monday vomitting. It was now his turn. He was down and out for the whole day while I returned to work and the kids to Christa's. Monday night I again vomitted. Woke up Tuesday feeling crumby but forced myself to go to work, and Dave returned to work as well. Through out the morning I kept feeling dizzy, so my boss sent me home. Wednesday morning, get a call from Christa, one of her kids now had this flu. Obviously didn't send our kids, so Dave took the day off of work again, which seemed good at the time because he again was feeling sick himself. Thursday....all seemed to return to normal, my parents came down for the day, I had an ob appointment which went well. Had to park in the parking lot beside the doctors office. When the appointment was over, I had to run through the pooring rain to get to the car. Get in the car and take a big sigh, looked up only to see what??? A parking ticket!!! I'm telling you.....

It should be smooth sailing from here on out.....IT SHOULD BE!!

African Lion Safari

It was a rainy day, but we endured it anyway. The kids loved it. It was so neat seeing Caleb take in all the sights, he was quiet but you could tell he was really enjoying himself. Amberly had fun too, but for different reasons. She just loved splashing in puddles, running in circles, riding on a bus.....
You can just see Caleb's quiet joy here.....


This lion frightened Amberly a bit. She wrapped her arms around my neck and insisted on sitting on me...

The kids taking in all the sights....



Caleb was a happy boy that day...

Here are the elephants in for their swim...

Caleb's highlight was riding this little train...

My highlight was obvious, riding the elephant with the kids. Dave's cousin Sharlene is on the back because I needed one extra adult....It was so neat!



This was a talented artist for an elephant.

So that was our day at the Safari...

U2 - I'll Go Crazy If I Don't Go Crazy Tonight

Posted this for a couple of reasons. Number #1, counting down the days till I can see U2 live again in Toronto. July 3rd will be here before I know it. Number #2, love the lyrics of this song. Number #3, Dave just left for the long weekend for his guys golf weekend. This being the first day of him being gone, has been terrible. The kids are from another planet, and I'm experiencing frustration like I can't believe, it's practically moving me to tears. Although, tears are not uncommon for me these days, but tears over their bad behaviour is. My refuge currently is their nap time, they are both in their rooms and for once today, all is quiet up there. During this time, I'm praying for a couple of things. First of all, I'm praying they wake up in their usual selves. The loving, gentle, fun and entertaining selves. Second, I'm praying for patience to fill me up so much I overflow with it. Third, I'm praying that I can take the opportunity I have with my kids and enjoy every second, instead of wishing the time away so fast that Sunday night is here before I know it.

I have plans for this weekend although I'm not sure the weather will be on my side. Tomorrow the big plan is to go to African Lion Safari. The other wives that have been left behind by their husbands are also going, making it to be a day of 4 moms and 8 (.5 counting the one inside!) children. I'm excited about this because I can't remember the last time I was there. I remember pictures of me with my family there, I had the famous pixie cut, which would make me anywhere between 4-7 years old I think! The plan is to go even with threat of rain. Sunday I can't decide if I'll go to church first, or maybe just spend the day at my parents. We'll see how the previous night is! Dave is supposed to be home early evening, so I'm hoping to watch this pasts week's episode of Lost and then the grand finale. Monday is supposed to be nice, so I may venture out to some place to get some things to plant in our garden. Otherwise I don't know what Monday will bring.

I'm going to assess the sleeping situation upstairs now....

Like Clockwork

This little baby is very predictable. Every evening for the past week or so, he's been very active with his kicking. Kicking so hard that Dave is able to feel it! I love this time of pregnancy. It makes it so magical and special. It by far makes up for the way I feel!

Yes, I am having a boy. I'm able to say this now because my Mom was o.k. with finding out, so I don't have to try and keep it under wraps anymore. As to a name, well, first Dave and I have to agree on something. And once we do, I think we'll keep it to ourselves until the birthday arrives!

My dad has been keeping himself busy with little projects that we throw his way. This was his latest creation which I am amazed at how amazing it turned out. He built this table and chair set for the kids. From scratch. With wood my brothers brought home from their work that would have normally been disposed of. Isn't it beautiful?!?! The kids totally love it. I have made a rule however (for now) that lunch and dinner are to be eaten at the big table while dessert is at the small table. This solves the problem of super huge messes and having to always get up from our seat in order to help the kids! Caleb loves the table so much that every time we go to have a meal he repeats the rule to me, making sure that I know he gets to sit there for dessert!





Maybe the next project could be something for outdoors, maybe a clubhouse?!? (hint hint)

I'm off for another ultrasound on Wednesday. They didn't get a good enough shot of the heart's outflow, so I'm going back for another one! I'm excited about it, plus I get another opportunity to confirm that he's a boy!

Amberly has been driving me nuts with diapers! Christa (babysitter) and I thought that she must be ready to potty train. She tells us when she's gone, and tries to remove her diaper on her own as she doesn't like being wet. She does this sucessfully at bedtime, where I'll find her naked! But after some trial we then decided that she's not quite ready because she can't make herself go yet. Even when offered a reward that she really really wants, she can't make herself pee. Caleb would do this all the time, every time I sat him on the potty he would naturally go, but Amberly doesn't know how to yet. So we firmly tell her not to touch her diaper and some days that works. Most days I'm fixing her or cleaning up an unwanted mess. But I know, this too shall pass!

Too Cool For Traffic Ticket

A Love Revolution

What will I do today to help someone else other than myself? I need to purposefully think about this and even step out of my comfort zone in order to help someone other than myself. But God is pointing this out to me, and I want to be a part of The Love Revolution.

Full of Baby

This week looks like a busy one, with appointments all revolving around this baby. Yesterday, Dave and I took the day off to celebrate our 6th anniversary as well as see our baby at our ultrasound. It was a great day. I can't tell you how amazing it is to see this little one inside! Despite the discomfort of a full bladder and board of a table, it was exciting. With Caleb and Amberly we waited to find out their sex until they arrived. Since we have one of each, we thought this time we would find out what we're having. I wasn't sure I wanted to, only because I love anticipating things like that, but Dave was sure he wanted to, and as the time drew near, I just wanted to know. We still haven't decided if we'll tell people, I have to be selective of who I tell, because my Mom doesn't want to know. So for right now and for here, I'll keep it under wraps. I would like to say one thing though. Because we know, I do feel a bond growing stronger more and more. It's just all wonderful.
Today, I had my first appointment with my OB. When I first walked into his office, he smiled and said it was about time, and that this time around we're going to aim for the most routine labour and delivery possible! We relived my last 2 labours and then discussed my options for this labour. He's fully confident that I would have a successful VBAC, but he's willing to do what ever I ask. At this point I too am hoping for a VBAC. He just laid out the risk and then proceeded to tell me what to be aware of. There can't be any inducing with a VBAC so I need to be prepared to go over due, and if I'm overdue by 10 days, then c-section it will be. As well, if I do go into active labour and I don't progress in dilating in a good time, then c-section it will be. Otherwise, it could potentially be a successful labour!
Thursday I head to Orangeville for my final appointment with my family doctor. It was just a coincidence that all these appointments happened in one week, but I'm o.k. with seeing and hearing my baby's heart beat on 3 different occasions in one week!
Baseball season has begun, and all seems right in my world right now. It's been a great week overall. (Plus it's only Tuesday!)

Saying Goodbye to a Dear Old Friend

Yesterday was Sunshine's last day with us. Over the past week she had not eaten much if anything, she was constantly breathing heavy and sneezing and coughing, and Dave and I knew that things weren't looking good. But I didn't want to think about the possibility of what needed to be done. I had always told Dave when the time came, I didn't want to know. Well, the time came on Monday. I didn't know. I went to work had a normal day. But when I got home with the kids and was spending time with them Caleb told me that Sunshine went to the doctors. I proceeded in asking questions and he told me that Sunshine was in a cage. I asked him where is Sunshine and he then said that she was in a cage in the car with Daddy. It was then I knew that Dave took her to the vet. When Dave came home I asked him about it and he confirmed that she was gone. I burst into tears. And then spent most of the evening crying. Even Caleb asked "Mommy, will you stop your tears?" I do regret not being able to say goodbye. But I have peace in knowing that this past week I treated her with love and took care of her.
Over the past few years I felt her becoming more of a pain, a nuisance, because I always had to clean up after her and coming home with kids in tow and having to find puke on the furniture was not a pleasant thing. But as much as she was a pain, she was dearly loved. I think even poor Dave had a hard time doing what he did.
Sunshine would have been about 17 or 18 years old I think. I remember her as a young kitten and I think I would have been 14 or 15 when we adopted her into our family. Caleb now thinks that Sunshine is in the clouds with Jesus.
It still brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it, but I know it was for the best.

Goodbye my Sunshine. I will miss you dearly and think of you fondly!

Worries

I'm at the stage where I feel constantly worried about this baby inside of me. Sometimes I think I feel the baby, and most of the time I don't and that worries me. I tell myself that I'm being silly for worrying so much. But I just can't seem to stop. I wish I had one of those heart monitors that the doctors use to listen to the baby's heart. But I don't, so I shall just wait patiently for my next encounter with this little baby. I go for my ultrasound on May 3, that alone makes me a bit nervous, I kind of wish I could see the doctor before the ultrasound, because I wouldn't want to find out during an ultrasound that something is wrong. See, I'm just blubbering on about this worry and fear that consumes me. But I'll again try to NOT do it and worry!

My little angels are sleeping right now, and all is quiet in the house. I'm going to take advantage of this quiet time and watch some tv and maybe even have a nap myself!



Aren't they sweet?

We've had a busy morning, out for some groceries, library program and even a visit to work to celebrate a co-worker's 40th birthday party. Actually the past few weeks have been really busy with things going on around here. But it's all good!

Well, off I go for some rest!

Under The Weather

There's snow in the air. It's really cold outside. And I don't really mind. I'm sick. I have a head cold, and I'm still not feeling well otherwise. I'm overly tired, having joint issues, and most of the time I feel disconnected from lots of things. As much as I want to crawl under my covers and hide away for at least a day, I know I can't. So I continue on with the normal responsibilities of everyday life. It's just today seems extra hard.

I think I shall draw myself a warm bath and crawl into bed for a short nap before my kids wake from theirs....

Recent Pictures

It's been awhile since I've taken pictures or even posted pictures. So here is just a few.

Oops, Well I Guess I Forgot to Mention....

A part of the reason I feel like I'm in a "lull" and have no motivation is all due to a specific thing. I'm having another baby. So what comes with that is feeling really sick all the time, feeling overwhelmingly tired, and over the top emotional.

I never have felt well when being pregnant. I wish I would, but with past experience, I am in for a long 9 months (well 3 of them are behind me). Yes, call me crazy, lots of people have already. When I told my boss, first she didn't believe me, second she told me I need to abstain and thrid she covered her mouth in shock. She told me she has never been this shocked by news of this kind before. Granted she's thrilled for me, and totally believes I'm carrying twins (which I'm hoping very soon will be ruled out!)

We're excited about it, I just need to get over my current physical feelings. I try to think past them and when people ask how I'm doing, I try to cover it up with positive feedback, and yet in my quiet times, I really do just sit there and cry.

We always knew we wanted 3, Dave would have been happy to wait 5 or 6 years, but I would be old by then and because I know what I go through, I just wanted to get it over with! ha ha ha! Plus I always wanted them close in age, I know it's going to be hard, but rewarding.

So September 23, 2010 we should have a new Snyder to welcome into the world. (If it holds out one extra day it would be my Grandma's birthday, and even though she's not with us any more to see her great grandkids, she loving them from above!) I'm hoping the babe's not in too much of a hurry, because I don't want to ruin Caleb's first school days, a couple of ladies have already told me how their siblings ruined their first days of school and they say they are scarred for life, so I've been warned!

I'm having a baby!