Oh Knots!

I am so tired today I had knots in my stomach. I didn't sleep very good last night, probably because I had caffine before bed. But I'm now home from one day at work, and it wasn't so bad today, I made it through. I had some laughs early on in the day, so that was good, I know I'm not having a good day when I don't have at least one laugh!

I'm going to a Party Lite party tonight at my co-worker Val's place. Should be nice. I'll have to write more later. I'm getting even more tired just looking at this screen more!

later.....
Happy Birthday MOM!

Dancing is fun

Dancing is fun with Oompa Loompa's! Benji is over for the night, so we decided to rent Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, I just love this movie! At the end the special feature is the dance moves of some of the Oompa Loompa songs. It was hilarious, but Benji or Dave didn't want to indulge me and participate, that was no surprise, they just laughed at me and then got bored of me knowing that they are missing a hockey game on tv.

Today was my half day, Benji came out and we checked out some stores and did some Christmas shopping, well Benji was more successful then me, I only got a new Christmas cd for myself, isn't that terrible! But tomorrow I'm going home with Benji and then my Mom and I are going to shop in Newmarket for Christmas, that will be fun. Plus is a week full of Birthdays, my Mom's is on Monday, so we're celebrating with her on Sunday.

Hope everyone had good birthdays!

Connecting

Just got back from a nice walk. Dave and I walked to the IGA to do our shopping, we had such a small list this week, plus I didn't feel like getting wet by going out swimming tonight, so a walk was nice. Plus I got to talk to Dave. It's seems funny to say that, but in our crazy schedules, sometimes we don't get an opportunity to just talk. It was so great.

Our dinner last night was a success. Then afterwards we played the penny card game, and I kicked everyone's butt! It was so great, poor Dave, he can't take it when I beat him, he had every excuse for me! hahaha.

I think it's time to watch Corner Gas. That's a fun show.

More Than a Friend

Ok, I now have something very important to share. You are Wonderfully Made! You are wonderful! I know that you probably don't ever think this about yourself, I don't think this about myself hardly ever. We had a guest speaker today at church, and he focused on this fact. It doesn't matter how we look, what we wear, God loves us the way we are, he made us this way. And at this moment it's hit me. I'm told this quite regularly, but it's at this moment where I feel it, and it's so beautiful. Everyday we go through tough times, stress filled days, trying our hardest to be our best, and at the end of our days, we're worn out, we're tired and sometimes we feel used and neglected, but this is all nonsense when we get this concept that whatever and whoever we are, Jesus loves us, more than we now. I searched for this song this afternoon, because I knew that it was pretty and I was in the mood to listen to quiet music, but I never listened to the words until now, and I'm going to share them with you. If only you could hear it, because it's even more amazing with the music. I hope the words can touch you in the slightest way.

More than a Friend

In the quiet of my Soul
In the stillness I hear your voice call
And I'm overwhelmed, and I'm lost for words
To describe you

Jesus you're more than a friend
Jesus you're more than my heart could ever express
Your love and your grace never fail me
Your merciful touch always heals me
You bring joy to my soul

My heart longs to worship you my King
And I long to bring you a pleasing offering
And I am overwhelmed, and I am lost for words
To describe you

That's it. If we're just quiet and hear Him, we would understand and see the joy he gives us, just by putting our "stuff" away for a bit, we would hear and feel Him. Just remember, you are a wonderful creation.

Nap Anyone?

Ahhh it's a windy dark day here, and I fell pretty tired. I was up early this morning making a potato dish to put in the slow cooker, then out to church to teach sunday school and then church. Tonight we've invited Kris and Shannon with Mason over for dinner, and since Steve is wifeless for dinner, we're feeding him too. I'm still really new at the whole company over for dinner thing, so Valerie at work gave me two recipes to do that are easy and by the smell of it tasty too. I also whipped up a cheesecake for dessert, I'm all over it! It's been fun, but I don't think I could do this much prep everyday!

Yesterday I scrapbooked all day, it was a blast. I got started on my Christmas cards and did a page in my book. There's a new store in Waterloo that is so awesome and has tonnes of cool paper, I wish I had the time and creativity to do it more often, but once a month is good for me!

We got trees on our street this week!

Ok I guess I don't have much to say, or I'm just to tired to talk about anything interesting, so I think I'll find my man and see if he wants to nap with me, it's always nice to fall asleep being cuddled.

In my Element

I'm really excited about tomorrow. It's Halloween, and I am going to wear my pajama's to work. I even went out and bought a new funky pair to wear, however, I love too many of my jamies so I've laid out 3 different ones, so that when Christa comes over to put rags in my hair I'll model the 3 for her and have her tell me which of the three are the most wackiest! Dave has thrown in his two cents and voted for my mushroom ones. I'm swaying to my cows ones, but then my news ones are well...NEW!!

Today was a very special day at church. It was a bastism service, where 3 people had planned to be baptised. I always enjoy these services, but the pastor opened it up for anyone who needed to be baptised (needed I used because anyone who has accepted Jesus as their saviour would in tern take the step of Baptism, because it's the least we can do to honour him, and an amazing thing we can do to witness to others our commitment) or felt lead to be baptised to come forward. Well I lost it, a young teenager girl appeared into the tank with the pastor and her parents were sitting right in front of me, and I lost it, there's just something about when a grown man cries, it totally gets me going! Her Dad was just weeping with joy, and there I am crying for him too! It was awesome, and I could totally feel the spirit of God there, with every word that these people shared as they were baptised, it was just amazing.

Yesterday I went to my parents for the morning, then to my aunts for a baby shower, my cousin and her newly born baby weren't there, because she was still in the hospital with him, but it was fun.

After church today, Dave took me to this new Thai resturant in Waterloo, it was nice, then we went to the mall and started our Christmas shopping. Worked on Benji this week. We hope to a little here and there from now one instead of all at once. Easier on the pocket book this way I think.

Well I should go and see what's for dinner....

A pea from my plate

Hi, I'm just memorizing my lines for tomorrow night, I get to flick a pea at my uncle Ed, the kids are going to love it! I'm very happy though, there isn't that many lines this week, which releaves pressure!

I just got back from swimming. I came home from work tonight feeling really tired, I told myself that I wasn't going to go swimming, it's windy, raining and cold out! I even fell asleep on the couch, but I made myself go, and now I feel good that I did. Another 20 laps, hooray!

So girls in my department are getting excited about Halloween. One lady suggested that we all dress up with a 50's theme, with poodle skirts and so on. It was an alright idea, but I had nothing that would suit, so I made another idea and threw in the air to see if anyone liked my idea. They all did. We are all going to wear our pajama's and pretend we're all at a slumber party, bringing our pillows and teddy bears. I'm going to get Christa to put my hair up in rags, and I came up with the idea of putting a green face mask on too! It's going to be a blast! My favourite part is I get to be comfy all day!

Well off to read more woes of Josephine B.

Overwhlemed

The Tupperware party was a sucess, although all week leading up I was very doubtful, about who was coming and if people would buy anything. By Thursday, I was pretty confident in my numbers considering I was getting last minute cancellations. My mom came with my Aunt Cathy, and my cousin Jody with her little girl Emily. Then my Aunty Heather came too. Jay and Yvonne came, which was nice to have that comfort of my close to my heart friends there. Then my supporters were there, Joy, Christa, and Suzanne, when I need people to fill the place, I can always count on them, Amamda came too, I'm still getting to know her. Dave's cousin Sharlene was there, that was good. Then Dave's mom Fern, came and I got her to recruit a couple of her co-workers which she did. My house was full.

A few of the girls that were invited but couldn't mke it, sent in pre-orders that totalled over $200, so I knew that I would earn some credit to get a couple of things. But Dve and I sat down before hand to look at the catalogue and we only chose 3 things we thought was enough.

Wel Gloria, the rep at the end of the night sid to me that she hoped I had a big wish list, I told her no, and that I thought the party was going to be a bust. Now Gloria has been doing this for 12 years, so I'm not sure whether she fed me this line, but she told me that this was her second biggest party she's ever done.! Dave and I have to go through this catalogue again, because we have big time money to spend. Gloria caculated all the bonuses and free product and tupperware money we get, and my party earned me $818 worth of free tupperware product. THIS IS INSANE!!!!! Never would I have imagined that I would get this chance. I mean Dave and I picked out 3 things for pete sakes! I don't know how we'll figure this one out, definately gifts in the future.

Christa, Suanne, Joy and Amnada all stayed afterwards and we watched Mona Lisa Smile. I didn't get to bed until 1:30am, but I was up at 6:30am, with things running through my head, one being homesick, my Mom was there last night, and I ddn't get much time with her, so I'm waiting to call her this morning, plus I"m going to see her today too, but still.

Anway , I'm really overwhelmed. It was a wonderful night, with a shocking ending with how much I earned, IT"S CRAZY!!!!

Ok maybe I should go back to bed and try to sleep some more!

I was talking to the girls at work today and we were discussing age, and how none of us wanted to experience living in an old age home. I just plainly stated that I didn't want to experience death at all. I want to be the generation when God comes again. I really don't like death, even though my loved ones go to Heaven, they are still taken from me. I don't ever want to be with out Dave or have to think about him being alone, that would be just terrible. But it's not upto me.

Last night I got an opportunity to just watch people and listen to them, I find it very interesting how people are and how they've changed, or sadly never change. I was tired, and we walked over to Steve and Christa's for dinner, Christa used her good dishes, which I'm very proud of her to do that, but she invited over another couple, and they did most of the talking while I just sat and listened. It's amazing what listening and observing showed me. It was irretating, and funny, sad and amusing all at once. I think what irretated me, was the change factor. I don't understand how someone can't change even though life changes every second. It's almost ignorance or stubborness. But for me very frustrating. Ahhhh, I just thought about how lucky am I that I've had life altering changes that have changed me, through everything things have changed me, I'm proud of that.

Looking forward to Dave coming home....

The Thanksgiving time spent

Well it's Monday night, it's over, although it didn't go too fast, which is always a nice thing, but I'm in that "oh no tomorrow I have to go to work" mood. It was a really enjoyable weekend. Friday night we started it off by playing badminton, again, it was lots of fun, and quite the workout. Saturday Dave was in the Octoberfest Ball tournament. My mom and Benji came over and we hung out, watched one of Dave's games and then they took me home with them. It was so nice, going out for walks, checking out the leaves, the pets, the wildlife. Sunday Dave joined us. Him and I and Benji went out 4-wheeling. It was so much fun, were gone for atleast an hour maybe more, up and down sideroads, and "not through roads" I was the passenger so I got to do all the looking around, there are some outrageously huge houses in places I never knew there would be. It was definately exploring!

This weekend was also my brother Steve's and my Dad's birthdays, so we celebrated my Dad's Sunday night and Steve called then too, it was so great hearing his voice, and so exciting hearing him talk about coming back!

Monday we got up to the cows kicking up a fuss because the calves were getting vacinated. We really didn't do much what so ever today. It was kind of wet out, and we all seemed tired. Dave's parents were over in the afternoon to share with my family the nice huge thanksgiving meal my mom made for us. It was awesome.

But now that I'm stuffed with turkey, I'm really feeling the tired effect. Plus I have to memorize my lines for Adventure Club. So I better go....

when you take it to heart

You love listening to music and even sing along, but do you really hear the words and understand their meaning? One song that has hit my heart today is the following:

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice

I wish I could put these beautiful into practice right now.

Waiting is not fun!

So our phone wasn't working since yesterday afternoon. Dave called Bell last night before going out and they told us that someone would be out to fix it between 8am to 6pm! Can you believe that time frame! Well I was up pretty early, Dave and I decided to clean out the garage, and I dug up the flower bed. It was a pretty eventful morning. But then the afternoon rolled around and I got bored. But I haven't been bored in quite some time, so it was actually nice for a change.

Last night we played our first night of badminton. It was lots of fun, I just can't get over how much of a workout it was. I was sweating good! There was lots of jumping and running and hitting, hahaha, it was great. But I'm slowing starting to feel the after effects of it. But we really enjoyed ourselves so we aim to be there next week too.

So much time has past since the last time I wrote. But nothing really new happened. Our small group started up again on Wednesday nights, and I really am glad for that. I love the group I'm in, we're all newly married couples and we're all good friends. One thing I love about the small group is Dave leading it. He is so gifted in doing it, I love just listening to him, to his sincerity and honesty and wisdom. It's so easy for everyone to realize Dave's heart when he talks about each subject, that's one thing that I totally love about him.

Well enough of that! hahaha

Anticipation

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. Dave and I are going to Parry Sound to my...Mom's cousin's cottage resort. I've been up there a couple of times, and this time Dave and I are going with Steve and Christa and Kris and Shannon with baby Mason. I just pray that the fall weather will cooperate and that it will be nice with lots of leaf colour and I may even be gutsy enough to jump into the lake!

Last night the pastor was over for a visit. He said he's been wanting to see Dave and I for quite some time. So he did. I was pretty nervous about it, I don't know why, I think because I wasn't certain about things he would ask, I think I imagined him asking me how my transition has been and moving away from home. That question can still get me pretty emotional, but he didn't ask any such thing. He wanted a tour of our house and then we just sat and visited, it was really nice actually, he had many stories to share.

Dave just got home from the volleyball meeting. What he told our team was that it wasn't a very competitive league, but now he's saying that times have changed and he thinks we'll get slaughtered. Oh Wonderful Hope!

Happy weekend here I come!

I am So Tired!

Wow, I'm so glad this weekend is finally over. Although I cherish my time away from work, this weekend just wasn't one I looked forward to.

It all started with Friday, and my trip to Orangeville. God has many wonderful ways of communicating with us doesn't he? I haven't heard from Tracey for the longest time, so I was looking forward to seeing her at BookLore when I went. But before leaving Elmira I had to run home to put clothes in the dryer. For some unknown reason I checked my email, and low and behold, there was a note from Tracey. She updated me on everything, even the gossip of the store. After reading it, it made my heart clear in knowing that asking Nancy to work every other Friday was not meant to be. What made it even clearer, was the actual visit. So many details to get into, but in the end was just happy in seeing everyone again and catching up. Especially Tracey, I miss her so much! I also got to hang out with my Mom and Dad and Benji, we did places like Home Hardware, Walmart, Canadian Tire and even Future Shop. Then we have Harvey's for supper.

Saturday was my final ball tournament. I got injured. But that's not new now is it! I was playing 2nd base the whole time, and one guy came up and drilled at me (the ball on the ground) and I couldn't get my glove down fast enough and bang it hit right on top of my ankle, I could have easily burst out into tears, it hurt so bad, but I didn't have the choice really, Kris quickly asked if I was ok, and I fighting the tears could only say, "yep" and Steve told me to walk it off. Oh the pain. THen what made it worse, was I then screwed up 2 plays right after that, and I did have tears at that point because of the pain and the stupidity. But luckily no one saw those, and Suzanne made me feel better by saying that no one noticed my screw ups, but I'm certain they all did. I wouldn't even let Dave ask me or console me because I knew I would get into the "uncontrolable tears". Luckily we had a huge gap between games and I was able to ice up my ankle at Shannon's for a good couple of hours to play our last game. I'm good now, just a bruise is appearing.

Last night, a bunch of us went to watch church league hockey, it was fun, Monica and I made up stupid cheers for our team and she brought "You Suck" posters, which is pretty mean, but in that instance when she showed me, I could see Lesya for a split second. I couldn't resist and I held it up a couple of times!

Today was another crazy day. First of all the neighbour was up partying until 5:30AM this morning I was so mad. It's hilarious how in my tired state, I conjured up plans of revenge, like ringing his doorbell at 7am over and over again and hide on my porch as pay back. I even asked Dave in the night if I could yell out the window to them all, "Don't you have any respect, for us and yourselves, don't you think you're too old to be doing this kind of crap." I even wanted to call the police I was so mad! ahhhhh. Anyway I was up at 6:50am because I forgot to put my lunch in the slowcooker the night before. Then I had to be at church at 9:15am for Sunday school. I only had 2 kids this week, it was a nice start. Then church followed right away. THen home where my Dad and Benji were waiting and I had lunch ready for them, and then I took them to the Home Hardware Fall Market, which is like going to a Home show, but it's for all the Home Hardware dealers to come and order things to sell in their store, its' a huge event, and I can go because I work for PIB and am considered an Home Hardware employee somewhat. Then I had to leave them there to back home and get Dave and head to Listowel for Dave's uncle's surprise 50th birthday party. I got to hold baby Mason for the longest time because Shannon was busy setting up and doing lots of things, it was so much fun!

Now I'm home and I'm going to watch some tv before bed.

Is it just that feeling of being overwhelmed?

This week has been high and low. Right now I'm on a high, Dave and I have been talking lots about many things to come, and it makes me so excited. The first to come is colour, we're going to do more painting, as much as I hate it, but what is the most exciting part is, we are going to ask for some quotes to have a painter do it for us. We want to finish our house so it's more of a home.

Tomorrow is my short day, I'm still wondering about going to Orangeville afterwards. I'm still debating whether or not I should ask Nancy if she would like me to work for her every other week. Hmm I just don't know!

Then the procrastinater in me has kicked in! I'm a volunteer for Adventure Club at church every Tuesday night where I'm an actress for the little kids. I play a niece of the main character who doesn't know who God is. So there's lines that need to be memorized. But I figure, they are just little kids, they'll never know if I'm making it up as I go! Then I'm a Sunday School teacher too! For the 4 and 5 year olds! I have to prepare crafts and such for these guys! Yikes I need to get on the ball! There is also Bible study starting up again the end of this month, and I'm co'ordinating a trip to Parry Sound for next weekend and haven't even begun to think about that! When will it ever stop. I have to make up a bunch of invitation cards to my tupperware party for the end of October, I think they will be plain and simple though, I must remember to ask Christa for that "You're Invited" stamp of hers!

Ahhh, all of that to do, and yet I'm here typing this out!

Work has gone by fast this week. I started on the phones, I have no idea what I'm talking about half the time, I spend my time putting people on hold while I run to find someone who can help me, then in turn I get back on the phone and help the customer! It's a learning curve and I must admit I like talking to people on the phone!

Well Dave is on his way to a meeting at church, I think I'm going to prepare for Sunday school and maybe get caught up in Survivor again.

This Saturday is the last ball tournament of the year, I'm thankful for that, but after baseball comes volleyball....

I'm Not an Early Riser

Well here I am, everything is very quiet and I can hear the birds and the crikets. We have baseball starting at 8am so I was going to have to wake up at 10 to 7 but I'm up now. Been up since 6am. I've got something on my mind and a part of it makes me excited and the other part of me makes me doubtful. I want to work at BookLore again. This has been on my mind for a while now. I want to have things my way. So I"ve been seriously considering asking Nancy if I would work part time for her. Here's my idea. Every other Friday I have the afternoons off at Rwam. So I thought that I could make it to Orangeville for 1 and I could work 1-9 those Fridays and maybe once a month or twice considering what I have on those weekends, stay at the farm and work Saturday 9 to whenever they need me.

I've talked about it to Dave and he thinks it's an ok idea. But then I think about it more and more and then I get thoughts like, what if she doesn't like that idea, and what if she doesn't pay me what I want. Plus I don't know what it would be like to work with Brenda, the lady who took my job, everytime I go in for a visit, it's like I'm stepping on her toes and she's not very pleasant towards me. But I could live with that. I love the store at Christmas time, and I would promise Nancy my bit of help until Christmas, and then in the winter, maybe take those snow months off and perhaps return in spring, or not return at all again until the fall. I don't know. Next Friday is my half, so I think I may go and talk to Nancy, tell her my idea and see if she bites at all. If not my feelings may be a bit crushed, well probably crushed a lot, but life goes on.

Lists

I always have a difficult time thinking of things I want to go on my Christmas list, but I've found one thing I want. Lost on dvd. It's on tv right now, the episode when Boon dies. It's such a great show, the imagination that they have is amazing and so appealing.

I've been feeling a bit better, but haven't done much tonight but bundle up on the couch again. Dave is at church doing training for Risk Management, he doesn't intend on working with children, but as a baseball coach and probably volleyball coach, it's going to be required of him.

A nieghbour came to the door tonight inviting me to a party next week. I can't go because I have to be at church for Adventure Club, it's the first night so it's kind of important that I be there. Tonight was also a night that I had a nice chat with my sister. I haven't really talked to her, I mean really talk for a long while. She called to get someone's phone number and then we just chatted, it was nice.

I've seen Oprah these last 2 days, and all I can say is I'm shocked and upset, both episodes I've just cried, the mess down in the US is so amazingly distrubing, and the fact that their government hasn't stepped up kills me! The things that have gone on, and the amount of death there, I don't know, it breaks my heart. It looks like a 3rd world country in New Orleans. Where is their help? I haven't been watching the news or anything, but to see Oprah's take on things, totally took my out of ignorance that is for sure.

blah

I'm sick. This cold crept up on me in the middle of the night, sneaky! I felt rotten all day at work, but managed to make it through, and I've spent the whole night just resting, and I'll take medicine before bed and hopefully I'll feel better in the morning.

Joy THEN Pain and Suffering....

Well I'm back and just awake from a nap this afternoon. This past weekend was lots of fun and getting to know new people and just catching up with old friends. Dave and I picked Jay up on our way to Scott's cottage Friday afternoon. We got there around 4. The weather was wonderful.

It was a weekend full of relaxing and enjoying the company of friends. And water activities OF COURSE!! Yesterday was the day full of activities. After the tradition of going to church and then for ice cream we all got our swim suites on and Scott took a few of us over to a neighbours to borrow a knee board. I told Scott I once in the past was successful at riding on one in a short instant in Australia. So I thought it would be fun to try again. It was fun, but try I could only do, I wasn't able to get up successfully, it was very difficult. After endless attempts I gave up and let Tina give it a whril and she somewhat successfully did it, I was so proud of her. Then we decided that was enough of that, and Dave got the tube out and he got on. Scott kind of forgetting the different length of rope with the tube compared to the knee board sent my poor Dave into the trees at the island, but brave as my Dave is, he held on and Scott feeling terrible fixed his path and as fast as Dave went in, Scott got him out. Scott said as soon as he heard me laughing he realized something was wrong. I felt bad because I did laugh thinking, hahaha, Scott is sending him into the weeds, and then in shock I was like TREES!!! There was no major collision, or anything of that kind, just a few cuts and scraps.

Then I had a turn. I told Scott about my emotion when I first get on the tube. I experience a fear and I always tell Scott to take it easy on me, and he always does, but after a few minutes on it I feel the comfort and my fear tends to go away. So Scott did just that, took it easy on me for a bit, long enough for me to feel comfortable, then he bumped up the speed! I was doing alright until he made two cirlcles in a row, on the 2nd circle I hit the wake of the first circle, and I don't really know what happened. Tina said the my legs were the first to leave the tube going straight into the air and my hands were the last still trying to hang on, but I just couldn't do it, and boom into the water, doing what she seemed to think was a perfect dive, minus the arms entering the water, my face was the first to enter! I know once in the water I did several somersaults along to slow me down. As the boat made it's turn to come pick me up, I was laughing so hard, it was so much fun! I got back on and told Scott to take it sort of easy because my arms felt like they could fall off, and he did, I didn't fall off again, but he told after that he sped up going around the bends, and I answered him with "I know, and I knew because I could feel the tube wanting to lift off the water and me thinking that I had to shift my weight somehow in order to keep in down!"

For all that Joy, comes pain and suffering, I now have a very stiff neck, bruises up my arms, on my legs, and I can barely move my upper body, I have to find someway to accomplish this moving issue because I have baseball in less then 4 hours and I have be able to atleast MOVE!!!

I'll let you know how it goes....

Where's the excitment?

Well it's finally Thursday night and I don't have to work tomorrow, but the joy that I usaully experience on Friday's is not here yet.

I'm still looking forward to the weekend away, and the weather is supposed to be really nice. It will be lots of fun.

I guess I just have lots of things on my mind as September is now here. I still have practically every weekend booked way past Thanksgiving, it's exhausting! But Baseball is now almost finished which is a relief.

Oh dear I caught the end of a very dramatic Coronation Street. Now I don't normally watch it but boy was it exciting! Fire, hit and runs and crash ups, wow!

I filled up on gas last night at 102.9 which was a very smart move, because now it's 126.9! INSANE!!!! Thank goodness I have a Honda!

I think that's pretty much it, cottage here we come.....