First Half Day on my Own

Well today was the first afternoon I was home alone with Caleb. Dave worked from home this morning, we had the Public Health Nurse come for a visit, so he wanted to be here for that. Then after lunch he headed to work. I managed ok. I won't go into the details of my methods of feeding Caleb, but there's a bit more work involved now, so I have to get myself into a routine. I felt the afternoon was spent feeding him. But hey, that's ok, he's so adorable, I love just holding him. And admiring him.

Our Christmas was special. Christmas eve we didn't get to hold much of him. My mom's whole family gets together that day, so there was almost 30 people at the farm, and yes, everyone had to have a hold. Caleb is so so good. He doesn't cry a whole lot, and he's so laid back. The loud crowd didn't seem to phase him one bit!

Christmas morning there was an overflowing pile of presents. I haven't seen so many before. And Dave and I were very overwhelmed, everyone bought something special for Caleb, and we totally didn't expect that. We also were spoiled. Right now I'm listening to a cd that Dave bought me Integrety's Worship Platinum. It is so great I love it! This year was the year of pj's for myself. I got 4 pairs of pj's and they are all pink! Adorable! And most importantly, COMFY!

I'm healing quite well now. I still have to take some pain killers late afternoon, as that's when the stiffness and uncomfortableness hits. Having a baby is such a blessing, but you know, it's very overwhelming. I have been an emotional wreck. I will fully admit that I have suffered with the baby blues. I look at my little man and sometimes worry that I'm not sufficient enough. Then with the struggles we have had with his weight, it was heartbreaking. But now that I have somewhat of a plan, I feel more confident in myself. God has blessed me with a wonderful husband. He has been just an amazing help. He's just so involved. He keeps looking at Caleb and says, "He's cute, I like him, I think we'll keep him, and we should get another one too!" hahaha, I told him that he needs to wait, because my memory is not that bad, it will take a bit to forget. The labour thing was alright, it's this after labour that is so hard.

Anyway, here are a few shots of Christmas for our little guy.

I'm a Mom

Well, I'm now a Mom. It's day 3 and I'm thinking I'm doing alright. Although my Mom who was here helping me went home half an hour ago and I couldn't stop crying. I guess it's what they call the baby blues. I'm confident in myself, and I'm so proud of my husband, we are doing awesome (hence the reason my mom felt she was good to go now as opposed to later) but my Mom is my safe haven, she was the biggest help ever, she got up with me all throughout the nights to help me nurse. Because Caleb is so big, and I'm so sore and weak, it's difficult for me to hold him upto my breast. She helped keep the house tidy, and taught us all she could, so now that she's gone, I just feel a bit nervous.

Anyway, here's the story of Caleb's entry into this world. Irony I say started it off! I was talking to Deb on MSN wednesday morning, and I asked her if she thought I should be taking my hospital bag to my doctor's appointment in case he decides something needs to be done that day, and she said no, that if something were to be done, Dave was going to have to come and meet me anyway, and that he could always get them. Well, I had just finished my shower at 9am, and I was drying off with the towel when I felt a little twitch down below, and pop, my water broke. I immediately hopped over the toilet for a bit. Then stress hit me fast as I noticed my water was a dark brown colour. I first called Dave at work and told him to come and get me. Then I called my Mom to tell her what was happening. (in between those 2 calls I accidently answered a telemarketing call from Direct Energy, but I was kind and said I don't have time goodbye) Then I called the hospital and they told me to come right in. Well I sat on a plastic bag in the truck, got out in the parking lot and lost heaps more water. I was drenched! Then in the hospital they assessed me, because my water was brown, it meant the baby had it's first bowel movement inside. At this point there was no contractions, but man the water kept gushing and gushing out! Then all at once the contractions started to come every 2-4 mins apart just like that. They quickly got me into a birthing room. My nurse went over options with me, and I said that I was going to take an epideral, but that I would wait a bit. I didn't wait long, as the contractions continued fast and they were unbearable. So the anstesiologist came in to do it, and it was awful, I was so scared I was shaking, and I was also going through contractions. But once I was hooked up everything was hunky dorey for the afternoon. It was about 5pm when I started feeling a pressure. I told the nurse and she said that was good, it meant my uterus was pushing down the baby. Well by 6:45 the pressure was so intense, the nurse not to push even though I felt a need to. But at 7pm, I said that I had to do something it was terrible. So another nurse assessed me and by that point I was fully dialated. So I started pushing. My doctor came in around 8pm, assessed me, and told me that he was going to have to help me. So in came the forcepts. I didn't look at them. But it was amazing, he was so great, I didn't feel much, and he asked me to push once and boom out came the head! (although he had to snip me unfortunately so I wouldn't tear) He was a big big boy. I think my doctor was proud of himself! Especially when the nurse said 11 pounds! He was shocked! I cried!

It was an experience I don't know how to descibe. I look at this precious boy and think, that baby was in my belly! I fall more and more in love with him when I look at him. I'm so proud of him and myself. I'm more passionately in love with Dave. He has shocked me beyond words. I was always worried about how he would be with our baby. He is so proud! He wants to show the world first of all. He loves just holding him, and he tells me that he could just look at him forever. Then he told my brother that maybe by this time next year we'll have another one! (I said there's no way of that happening, the after effects on your body after delivering a baby is awful, especially when there's stitches in an inappropiate place and can't go to the bathroom without some kind of terror, and you have to say out loud, "ok ok lets pee, pee pee pee!") He tells me that he loves our baby, and how beautiful he is. When I see him with Caleb, my heart doesn't know what to do with all the love that overflows. God is so amazing, to have created life in this way.

Anyway, I'm going to go and put my feet up, as they are balloons at this moment. I'm sure there is much much more I can tell you about how my life has changed in the past 3 days, but I think my fingers have had enough exercise tonight!

Thank you for your prayers! God answered them with many blessings of a beautiful, perfect, healthy boy.

Good day

Well today was a nice day. My parents came over for the day, they got here early enough to join us for church. We had invited them to because there was special music today. The afternoon we spent just visiting with eachother. While in church it dawned on me, that this time next week there will be a baby in our lives!

I have mentioned the problems we have had with our neighbour and their stereo system? They play it so loud that we can practically hear what the words are, and of course, they play it sometimes at the most inappropriate times (such as 2am in the morning). Sometimes they play it late in the afternoon, where I feel like I need to turn up the tv volume to drown it out! Well this morning, Mert called and said that this neighbour was robbed last Thursday in the middle of the afternoon! The odd thing was I was home that day, but didn't notice anything out of the ordinary. Then Dave asked me if I had heard the stereo since then, I don't think I have. This is the bad part of the story, I kind of started laughing! I thought, "was this my answer to prayer?" Would the stereo have been stolen too? Oh dear! I don't think it was because I'm thinking that I have heard it since Thursday, but I'm not 100% sure.

Anyway, Christmas Vacation is on tonight! I'm looking forward to watching it!

Question

Dave and I have been thinking of getting something special for our little one's First Christmas. Do people do that even though it will have no concept what so ever? If yes, then what do you suggest? My brother has already provided a "Baby's first Christmas" ornament for the tree. Grandma Fern has already bought a First Christmas outfit. And Dave has come home with a book of collected fairy tales from around the world.

If you have any good suggestions let me know.
Let me know if your suggestion would be to not worry about it and do nothing, because I honestly don't know what we should do!

Saturday Night

Well, no news to share as of yet. I'll just say that right off the bat so you're not wondering.

Today I didn't do much in the morning. Dave went to the church to work on the computers there, so I actually crawled into bed again after talking to my mom for awhile. After lunch, Dave went to the Card shop for a couple of hours while I cleaned the house. It needed to be vaccuumed. I also sifted through the millions of flyers we received in the last 3 days. When Dave got home we decided to go to Kelsey's for dinner. I wanted the spinach dip. Then we wandered around Home Sense and we bought Good Night Moon, as it was half the price on a discounted table. Then Dave took me for a drive, it was nice, we looked at all the rich houses on the north end of Waterloo. I just finished watching Home Alone. It always makes me laugh.

Last night we were treated out for Swiss Chalet by a couple from Church. Dave and Dave H. go way back, as Dave H. owns the Card shop (when I say that I mean like sport cards) Because my Dave helped him with his computer issues, he and his wife wanted to treat us out for an evening. It was lots of fun. Dave H. is a retired police officer and he has some pretty funny stories to share. His wife Pauline seems to be serious when you look at her, but the things that come out of her mouth can be hilarious! Late into the evening she decided to do the needle and thread thing over my belly. It swang side to side which we all thought indicated a boy. Well her husband thought she was making it do that, so he had to try, and so here I was reclined in a chair while the two of them hovered over my belly, intently watching this needle, and Dave H's amazment over the needle moving side to side was so funny. So he then made my Dave do it just to see, and sure enough, it went side to side again! So all three were hovering over my belly, just thinking about it makes me laugh, it was so funny! So it looks like were having a boy, that's what everyone is telling me, so I'm believing it. Only maybe 4 people have told me otherwise, out of all the tonnes of others!! Only a matter of short time will tell at this point!

Tomorrow my parents are coming to me for a visit. I mentioned that I wanted to go to the farm, but Dave is a little leary of going too far in case something does happen. So my parents are coming here for a change. I'm really looking forward to that.

Day 2

So I'm on day 2 of my maternity leave, without baby in hand! Oh well, I'm still waiting. On Sunday the pastor's whole message was waiting on God. And so that is what I'm doing. Yesterday I accomplished my thank you notes from my Mom's shower. I also had a couple of nice chats on the telephone, one with my Mom and one with Amy. In the afternoon I was feeling sleepy at 2, so I crawled into bed and slept for an hour and a half! Shocking! But much needed. I don't sleep well at all anymore. My hips just kill me at night. Last night was terrible, I couldn't sleep in the same position for long at all. I don't know how Dave stays with me in bed! He must be so tired that he sleeps through it!

Today I've been to Zehrs and back. I thought I would try and stock up on food for when the baby comes, but when I get to the store, my intentions fly out the window. I don't think I was sucessful for a food stock up. Oh well! I think I'll probably sleep the afternoon away. I'm expecting a phone call from my co-worker who needs help. I told her to call me if she had any questions while I'm gone. While I was out, she left me a message to call her, so I returned a message! We'll play phone tag.

Tomorrow I've got my last scheduled doctor's appointment, however I'm sure I'll be told to make another one for next week! hahaha. I'm gonna ask him what he thinks of only allowing me to go only 5 days over! I'm also hoping Christa will cut my hair maybe, we'll see, I'm feeling kind of attached to it right now, maybe I'll wait until after the baby and it all falls out! At that point we've been toying with the idea of perming it! I'll see, we'll be preparing for our small group party which is that night. I'm taking a salad.

Anyway, I'm still "hanging in there"! So many people come up to me and say that to me! Ahhh, it's kind of tiring! Dave made us go to his boss's Christmas party, and I totally didn't want to go, he didn't either, but because it's his boss, there was an obligation, and you know, you just totally reach a point where you're sick of talking about being pregnant. I had many wives asking me how I've been doing, that was the conversation for the night. I survived, but didn't want to talk about it anymore!

I really like the Dave Matthew's band. I'm listening to one of his Christmas songs, and I just love it! Hmm, I need to tell Dave this, so he can maybe get another Christmas present for me :)
hehehe!

Finally

Ahhh, after downloading this new blog version a week ago, I tried to get into my account tonight and it took me forever to figure it out! I'm tired now and I don't feel like typing! hahaha.

So tomorrow is my last day. It hasn't sunk in yet. Today my department was kind and brought in Swiss Chalet for lunch and a cake wishing me all the best. We're so busy at work, that I feel kind of bad leaving them swamped as they are, but oh well.

It's been an emotional day, I'm tired. I have developed a sinus cold, and so I don't feel so great. When I got home today, my stomach started turning. And sure enough, I puked! So I crawled into bed, and when Dave got home I just burst out into tears. Which of course didn't help the sinus thing and now my eyes are burning. I don't know why I waited for Dave to get home before I cried, but as soon as I saw him I just cried. This poor guy, having to put up with me over the past 9 months have been a challenge for him. But in the end, I know how much he loves me.

Well it's one week today for this little one to come. But I'm thinking we're going to be waiting a bit longer. So we'll shall see. I admit there is a little part of me that hopes it's tomorrow! I've had many discussions with this baby, detailing how I would like it all to happen. We'll see if it listens to mommy or not! hahaha. But I know God has it all figured out, and I'll shall wait on Him. I'll keep telling myself what my doctor told me, babies are much easier to control in the womb than outside! He's a good doctor, and makes me laugh.

Christmas is Coming

Only one month away until Christmas. Can you believe that? Dave and I added a few more touches to the baby's room. I finally have a couple of pictures to share. And a couple of me. 38 weeks pregnant!

Yes I just took this one 10 mins ago, I'm tired and ready for bed any moment now. Maybe tomorrow when I'm nicely dressed I'm might look better. As you can see my pj's aren't very flattering.

Cars

Dave and I just finished watching Cars. It's a cute movie. Speaking about Cars, I had to take my car to Honda last night for service, and it turned out that the front brakes needed work. So I left it there over night, and Val from work was kind enough to drive me there on our lunch so I could retrieve the Plum. I took Val to Harvey's for lunch since she drove into Waterloo in the first place. She's so kind!

Oh ya, and someone in our department got fired today :( I can't help but feel partly responsible. She was an assistant, and she made a few brutal errors when it came to sending out important things, things that were accomplished by my team. So when I had my annual Performance Appraisal (which went very well, I'm going to brag, if it was like a report card, it would be straight A's) I had to tell my boss about the one huge error, only because for us to correct it, we had to do it all over again, very time wasting (especially when I have a million things to do before I leave). Anyway, my boss thanked me, and asked me from now on, any more errors I come across to please make copies of them and give them to her. When she said that, I knew there was an issue. I didn't have to make copies, but apparently there was lots more that were discovered for all teams.

My doctor did an internal exam on Tuesday, he told me that my baby feels as though it would currently weigh in at around 8 pounds! Ahhhh. And I haven't dropped yet. Babies gain 1/2 a pound a week at this point. If I go over, Dave may be right, our baby could weigh 10 pounds!

One way to avoid induction is to walk (yes Deb, I know all the other methods, I just won't mention them here hehehe) so I walked to Bible study last night, hoping to promote this litlle one to drop, even a bit. But I think all it accomplished was a numb left leg!

Oh yes, and you can laugh all you want with this one, I don't fit into an Elmira KFC booth anymore. My belly has totally shot out in the past week. So much so, that my brother's jacket that I could do up last week, I no longer can. And because the baby hasn't dropped it's realy high up! I love feeling it though. The head is down, and I constantly get to pat the bumb, as it on my left side all the time. It sticks out lots. Needless to say, when it does that, I kind of look lopsided!

Ahh well, one more day of the week to go, and then one more week of work to go! Benji is coming over tomorrow, we're gonna decorate the house and then go out to the movies together. We're going to see Santa Claus 3. Yep!

Ok I'm Ready

Dave and I just finished our prenatel class with a Doula. It was very informative and I enjoyed listening to her. Last night she left Dave and I with a video of 3 births. I must say I didn't enjoy that so much. Ignorance is bliss. I was almost ill watching these births and I don't know how I'm possibly going to get through it. At the same time I remind myself that it's done all the time. And women do it over and over again. These were Dave's words to me tonight "You are going to breakdown and take any and all pain medications at the drop of a hat when you first feel a contraction!" I said "No I'm not!!" and he just gave me that smile of his and said "I know you Charlene, you're a wimp!" hahaha, I just love the faith he has in me :)

I was proud of Dave too. Over these past 2 nights he was very involved, asked questions and that made me feel even more confident in having him by my side. See we have had this discussion. In the beginning I wanted to have my Mom there with me, she is my best comforter. But as of late with time drawing closer, Dave has expressed to me that he wants it just the 2 of us. I was upset with this idea, but he proceeded to tell me why he felt this way and so on. (And you know men, they never tell you their feelings, so I had to listen) So after watching him interact and ask this Doula questions, I feel much better with the idea of not having my mom there but Dave.

Deb, I typed a nice long comment about your Friends post and I must have typed the silly word code thing in wrong because my comment didn't appear. But what I wanted to say was, I know how you feel. I've been lucky in finding good friends through church and work, but they aren't the same as what I have in the O'ville crowd. I'm a physical kind of person, so I love the hugs and stuff like that, you know the cuddling under blankets, sharing the same foot rests, I can't do that with these girls. But I'm so thankful for email! I still feel apart of your life when we can write short little emails telling eachother what we did in the day!

Tomorrow is another doctor's appointment. We'll see if there is anything new to report!

I have 2 weeks of work left! Amazing!

Busy Day

Well today I had my whole family over (minus Denise because she unfortunately had to work) to celebrate my Mom's birthday. I provided dinner for everyone. I made a big thing of chilli and a loaf of bread and rice. It was very good and there are no left overs!! Steve and Sally once they arrived went with Benji and Buddy and the girls to St. Jacobs. Then Dave and I took Mom and Dad to the hospital to show them how to get there. After that we went to Burger King for lunch and then to Babies R Us. Dave and I bought a change table mat and a breast pump! We got money from a couple of my aunts and I said it will be funny to write in their thank you cards, "thanks so much for your gift we bought a breast pump with it" hahaha

We all met back at the house and we had Mom open her gifts, then we had cake. It was a great day, I love having my family here. As I'm here typing, Sunshine is looking at me oddly. Poor girl is getting so old, I hope she's ok! Actually she looks really ticked off, probably because of Krista and Brooke running around! hahaha I love cat personalities!

Well back to work tomorrow. I think I have decided that I will make December 1 my last day of work. I originally thought I would work until I went into labour, but I didn't realize how exhausting it can be. I struggle everyday there, if I don't have anything to eat every 2 hours I'm a zombie! So I'm looking at the paperwork I need to complete and hopefully tomorrow I'll get to meet with the guy to help me fully understand how things will work, and get everything organized.

Also tomorrow is another Dr. appt. Like I said before, I really enjoy going to these appointments because I get reassured that everything is normal. I'm gonna ask him if he thinks I've "dropped" much and ask him how much he thinks this little one is weighing. Dave told me this morning he's betting on a 10 pound baby. I smacked him and said he better not be hoping for that or else I'll kill him!

Well my eyes are getting heavy, and it's only shortly after 7pm. Benji brought us Cars to watch, but we have another one of his movies called Unfinished Life, so I think Dave and I will watch that one first before Cars. I'll let you know if I like it!

Only the Lonely

Yes I'm here all alone. Dave had to go to Milwalkie for a couple of days, he gets home late Wednesday night. Thankfully I have a full agenda outside of work that keeps me busy. Tonight was a ladies night at the church. It kind of reminded me of the girls cooking nights that Amy would host where we all helped to prepare the meal then eat. That's pretty much what happened at church. There was 4 stations you could choose to help with. I wanted to work on the main coarse which was pork tenderloin maranated, but I arrived a bit too late and there was too many hands helping in that area, so I went to the salad station that needed help. We made that yummy oriental salad with the chinese noodles and really yummy dressing.

I got to know a couple of the ladies better. One sweet old lady, Doris, who I've gotten to know from our shopping trip has the most amazing memory, she knew that I was due in a month, without having to ask me again, and she teased me about taking me for long walks come early December and then show me how to breathe properly! She's funny too, and had me laughing. She had 8 children and I asked her if that was a number she just thought at the time was how many she wanted. She immediately responded, "I had no time to think about something like that, back then I was just doing what women were supposed to do, reproduce, and by the eighth one I finally got it!"

My friend Lesa has always told me how very badly she wants to witness a childbirth in person. She's had 2 of her own, but one of her life goals is to see someone else through that situation. Well as soon as she found out Dave was leaving me this week, she joked with him saying that her and I were going to go out for a vigerous jog, followed by a round caster oil drinks, hoping that would put me in labour so that she could step in for him while he's gone!

Reality is starting to sink in, as last week my Doctor gave me my medical records, that I now have to carry with me everywhere in case the time comes. He said it's at this stage where I could go anytime, although he's still tells me that my chances of going over due are pretty high. But I think we're ready. Well I still need to pack "the bag" but other than that, I think our house is ready for this little one.

Sleep is very difficult, bathroom breaks are hourly and feeling hungry yet eating two bites makes you feel that "uncomfortable full" is very tiring. I'm an emotional wreck. I cry over silly things. As most of you know, I am a girl who needs her sleep, and this lack of it is making become a different person. My humour, which I find usually at the expense of others is getting worse. At work I make humour mean! It's bad, I mean it's funny, but bad! hahahaha. Oh dear!

No more complaining! Tomorrow night is Adventure Club, then Wednesday night is Bible study. It's good to be busy and not home alone. Plus I'm kind of looking forward to sprawling out on the whole bed without feeling guilty of moving a lot! Dave probably will have the greatest nights sleep on this trip!

Wow It's windy out

Dave and I were downstairs in the basement watching Posieden, and when I came up here it's sooooo windy I was shocked.

This has been a week full of events. I'm so tired really. The exciting things I did this week included a dinner at the new Mandarin in Kitchener on Wednesday with the girls from work. Then on Thursday, I was asked last minute if I would be interested in going to a Customer Appreciation Night put on by ESI for work. I said sure, but after saying yes I doubted myself in going because I've been so tired lately. But I went. We had to leave work early on that day and we went to Toronto for a dinner at a Restuarant called Bumpkins. It was really yummy food. Then we were treated to The Blue Man show. This show was a blast! I have never seen or been to anything like it. I wish I could describe it to you but, there are too many words to use and my fingers won't type that many tonight! I loved every minute of it. This too made for a very late night, I didn't get home until midnight or shortly after. Friday was my half day, so I went to bed when I got home and slept for a couple of hours. Last night Dave and I went to the mall with Steve and Christa and we had dinner at the food court, how special is that eh?!

Today I went to the farm along with Fern and Joy, picking up Sally along the way. My mom threw a baby shower for me. It was so nice. The girls from my mom's whole side came and 3 of my aunts from my Dad's side came. I got some really great gifts, I was very overwhelmed and Deb! You surprised me. I can't thank you enough for sending that package along. I loved every bit of it. That white sleeper with the sheep on it is absolutely adorable. And I love the Sheep in the Jeep book! Everything sheepy! IT was sooooo wonderful. Thank you so much! If you were here I would give you a big hug!

I was very overwhelmed by the things I received. We were blessed with some adorable outfits, Fern got us a cute "My first Christmas" outfit. One of my cousins, who is also a new mom, gave us a bag of what she called the "essentials" with bathing stuff, face clothes, bum cream, soothers, lots of things. We even got a highchair from my aunt Cathy and cousins Jodi and Becky. Denise supplied us with a monitor and Sally with a play mat! It was great. It's exciting really. Now I just need to wash these new things and organize the dresser.

Tomorrow Dave and I may go to Babies R Us and use the gift certificates we received to get maybe the bath tub and Bundle Me carseat cover. Then I'm going over to Joy's for a Mary Kay spa treatment! Woohoo!

Anyway, I know the clocks turn back tonight, but I'm feeling so drowsy, I want to go to bed now! I'll probably sit in a bath for a bit, since my hips are already aching and I haven't even been in bed yet! Maybe I'll read myself to sleep tonight instead of cry myself to sleep! I'm so far behind in reading my book for Sunday School. I should really work on that!

I'm Ready

Well not really, but this has been kind of an eventful weekend. Right now I just finished wrapping up the Christmas gifts I have bought so far. On top of that, Krista's birthday present and Sharlene's shower present. I still have the small things to think about, like any group gift I need to buy for, plus I still have my Mom and Dave to worry about too. Dave can worry about his family. But hopefully next weekend we'll get more done! So when ever this baby decides to come into this world, atleast we've got a good head start!

Friday night Dave and I met Jay for dinner at Red Lobster. Dave and I were there first, and while waiting I was reading the menu. I'm not a fan of fish to begin with, so I told Dave that I think I was going to order the chicken. He laughed at me and said I couldn't do that in Red Lobster! So I ventured to the next safe thing, bbq'd shrimp. It was really good, I enjoyed them. Dave and Jay had good meals too. Well, about 4 hours after my meal......Dave and I were sitting watching tv, when it hit me. I said "Oh oh, my dinner is not staying." It was seconds, I knew it was going to happen, I had just enough time to get a bag and make it into the bathroom, and out it all came. It was awful, shrimp coming back up is not good! I then had cold sweats for an hour or 2 after, I just went to bed. Then Dave at 12:30am fed me some gingerale and soda crackers, and come 7:30am I woke up totally fine. I'm telling ya, this whole pregnancy has thrown my body all wacky. I have never thrown up as much as I have over these past 33wks! I have never felt so run down as I have. It's crazy!

Saturday I went to Newmarket with my Mom. Then came back home, to find that Dave finished assembling the dresser for the baby's room. It's in order now, I just have to wash all the clothes that we have collected so far and put them away, and hang new blinds. I will definately show you pictures, but right now it still looks like a mess, so I'll wait for some more organizing!

Anyway today we went to church. Then we had Steve and Christa over for lunch. After lunch we went to East Side Mario's for dessert. Mmmm I had a funnel cake! Then I had a nice big afternoon nap. Now I'm here.

Shopping Success

Well this past weekend was a success. We left Friday night for St. Catharines, and our hotel was amazing. The manager upgraded our suite so we each had our own queen bed and there was 4 of us in the room! It was awesome! Then Saturday was the full and very long day. We shopped at the Pen Centre, and I got the majority of my Christmas shopping done. I think all I have left to get is my Mom's and Dave's gift. Dave can worry about his family! After shopping we headed back to Waterloo where we had dinner at Kelsey's, then we all went to see The Gaurdian with Kevin Costner, it was a very good movie. I got home at 10pm and when I found Dave's arms I just curled up in them and cried. Silly I know. I had a great time away, but I was so tired. And I missed him terribly. (I forgot to say that I hadn't seen Dave since Thurs. morning because he and Steve went to Ottawa Thurs. for a hockey game and spent the night and we missed eachother on Friday.)

Sunday I was still a wreck, so tired. We went to Sunday School and then I had to be on nursery duty, thank goodness there was only 3 kids to look after, or else I think I would have died. Then Dave took me out for ice cream after lunch. When we got back I had a big nap. Sunday night Dave's friend Joe and his wife came over for a visit. Then I went to bed once they left.

Today I had another Dr.'s appt. Everything is going well, I lost a pound over the past 2 wks, but that's because I was so sick last week. I still expanded 3cms. Only this time the Dr. told me that the heart rate sounded like a boy this time! hahaha, he'll have me guessing until the end. He told me not to worry, that I'll be the second to know what it is!

Tonight Dave and I went to Stratford to visit Sharlene and Jason and met Kayley. What a precious tiny thing. She is so small. So adorable. It made me excited to meet my little one. Kayley is doing so well, she was off the feeding tubes and monitors as of Sunday and today the doctors told them that tomorrow may be the day they release her, so that is so exciting!

Well it's really past my bed time and I'm so ready to get there. yawns.....

Day 2

Well I feel much much better today. I woke up feeling pretty weak in the tummy, and I was had a cold sweat, so I decided to stay home again. I slept for the whole morning, then I attempted making myself some soup. The power went off! So no soup, I ate more crackers. The power was off for a good 3 hours, in that time I read some things on labour, and I assembled the baby rocker we got. Right now I feel 100% better. I'm starving, so Dave is going to bring me something to eat. But I'm glad I had this restful day to get all better.

I'm just glad it was a bug and not just being sick because I'm pregnant. I've heard many women tell me that in their last stretch of pregnancy they got sick again, and I don't want to go through that again.

Ahhhh I can't believe this...

I am sick, not because I'm pregnant, because I've caught a bug or the flu. This has been the most unpleasant day ever. Last night I was sick through the whole night, I lost my whole turkey dinner. Then when I got up this morning I went to work. I was there for 2 hours. I had to run to the bathroom and I didn't quite make it to the toilet before I spewed everywhere. Then in a frantic tizzy I quickly cleaned up after myself praying real hard that no one walks in. I even got it in my hair. So I then was there for a good 15 mins. cleaning, then I ran home. Only to make it in time to throw up the rest of my breakfast. I was crying like crazy. It's truly aweful being sick and alone. I called Dave and he offered to come home, but I couldn't let him do that. Then I called my mom and she wasn't home, so I started to cry even more, I felt bad because I left a sobbing message on their machine.

I pulled myself together and called the Dr's office. He later called me back and told me there isn't anything I can really do, just to ride it out. He said there is a bug going around and he's not concerned that it's anything but that--a bug. He again said that my blood sugar test was very normal and that I have no risk of the Gestational Diabetes which can cause vomitting. So I have been in bed all day. Dave did come home a bit early with gingerale, and so far I haven't thrown up since 11:30 this morning. I still feel like crap, and I've only eaten a bowl of hot cereal and 5 crackers all day. But they've stayed down.

Anyway I just pray that I feel better soon, because I don't have any more sick days from work, and I have to go away this weekend with the ladies from church.

It's Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving. We have had such a wonderful weekend. The weather has be so wonderful, I love Fall when it's nice out like that. Yesterday Dave and I spent the whole day out at my parents. All of us "kids" went out for a nice long walk out into the back fields through the hardwood bush. We got some nice pictures. We had a big turkey dinner polished off with pumpkin pie. We also celebrated my Dad and my brother's birthday's. Today is Steve's and tomorrow is my Dad's.

Today we're going over to Fern and Mert's for another dinner. I'm going to be so full! My dad was teasing me about how "full" I looked yesterday! hahahaha.

I think I'm at the fun part of the baby moving. I get little limbs that stick out and when it moves, my whole belly moves. Dave thinks it feels like tremors! hahaha. The unfortunate thing is I'm experiencing the first 3 months of nausea again :( Over the past few days I've been really ill. I'm back to taking my medicine regularly. Last night I couldn't sleep I was so uncomfortable so I tried out the couch, and I wasn't there long before I had to run to the toilet to hurl. Lovely I know!

Anyway my Davey wants me to get ready and leave right now! So I'll maybe write more later :)
Have lots of turkey :)

A Foot

I guess going through this experience brings many firsts. Sunday afternoon was the first time I actually saw a bump appear on my belly, I touched it and it was small and hard and then it moved slowly down. I swear it was my babe's foot. I hollered for Dave to come, because it happened again, but then he still missed it.

Dave's cousin Sharlene had her baby today! I can't believe it. It came 6 weeks early, a little girl. They named her Kayley (not sure how they are spelling it) She's doing well, on a ventilator but, doing great. I just can't believe it still! I'm so happy for them. It makes me think of how much longer I have to go now.

Ok, I really have nothing else to say at this moment. Besides that I'm tired. Hmm.

Sighs

I truly feel like an old lady. I'm very uncomfortable and yes my hormones are all wacky. This belly gets in the way, it takes me a definate 3 motions to move from one side to the other in bed, and when I get there, my hips ache and sometimes my leg muscles cramp. Yes, the joys of being pregnant. I'm over tired, I'm dealing with heart burn and vomit, and I break out in sweats. I just want to cry.

Even though I feel like this, I already love this baby. I spend lots of time worrying about it. I worry if I don't feel it move sometimes, ahhh worry.

As you may see I'm tired as I write this. I'm emotional. There are days where I'm freaked out. I get the classic "I'm not ready for this responsibility" I get discouraged when I think that it won't be just me and Dave anymore, that can be tough. But then there are moments. Like on Sunday, Mason left his Mom and came up and snuggled his head into my shoulder & neck, and I only thought of nice that was, and how I can't wait to have that all the time. Or tonight when the little ones come and eagerly want to sit with me.

I forgot to mention the clumbsy me. I've always had a clumbsy streak, and so far it hasn't been bad. But tonight I knocked a whole jar of glitter on the floor at church. This nice man cleaned it up for me. He had glitter all over his hands when he was done, but gee it was so kind of him.

I need sleep.

oh, our baby room is painted, and there's a crib and dresser on the way.

Can you smell it?

This evening Dave and I went out with Steve, Christa, Shannon, Kris and Mason, we first watched the guys each hit a bucket of golf balls at the driving range then we went for a stroll at the Floridale Dam. And I could smell it. Fall is in the air. The leaves are showing signs of them changing, and it's not even 8:30pm and it's totally dark out. I like this time of year. Today was beautiful out.

Dave and I became members today in church. We had to get up in front of the whole congregation and read a covenant and then shook the hands of the combined council. We've gone through the interview months ago, but today was the congregational induction I guess you would call it. It is fullfilling really, to be officially apart of this church family. It has taken time, but I totally feel at home in this church, I've met and made some wonderful friends. I also started to attend Adult Sunday School and the women have a seperate class and we're using the book How to be a Mary in a Martha World. It sounds really neat, and something I'll need for the future. Learn how to stop and reflect and find peace in moments.

This week was also a busy week with activities at Church. Tuesday night Adventure Club started, and that was fun. And Wednesday night our small group started up again. Because there are so many of us in the church that are either starting a family or already have a young one we are studying Sheparding a Child's Heart. This is really cool too. It will teach us to look past the outward actions of our children and look at their heart. That's probably not the best way to say it, but it was only the introduction night!

My parents were down on Thursday. They went to the market for the day and then hung out at my place until I got home. I fed them some supper and then we headed to Kitchener for Babies R Us. My parents wanted to buy us a Pack n' Play. Although the one we wanted there, were all sold out, we ended up finding one in Sears that I really liked. We also went to Motherhood, and my mom helped me shop for desperately needed clothes, while my Dad wandered around the different stores that were down there. It was so nice to have them for the evening. We got back home and then they headed home themselves.

The oddest thing happened on Friday, Steve, Christa, Dave and I went to McDonald's for dinner and Amy walked in! It was so shocking to see her, I almost didn't believe it!

Yesterday Dave was in a baseball tournament. I stayed at home, I was very frustrated as I tried to be successful at ordering some Leaf tickets for my brothers and had no luck. Even though I was on ready for 11am when the went on sale!! Then in the afternoon I ventured to paint, and I painted half the nursery! I'll leave the other half for Dave.

Well that is that week in a huge nutshell!

One thing off the list

Tonight Dave and I finally got the stroller/carseat that we needed. We were lucky too because I liked the one that was in Sears, but then clued in that the exact same stroller despite the colours were sold in Babies R Us and this week there was a major sale. So we got it with $60 off! I even like the colour of it.

This weekend was a nice one. Saturday I spent in Orangeville watching my brother in his baseball tournament. His team ended up winning the whole thing, so that was good for them. That night I met Deb and we went to Kelsey's for dinner. Then we went back to her parents place and just talked, it was so nice! I miss our girl chats! Deb.....I won't ever forget your Depends line! That is hilarious!!

Sunday I went to church and it was a great service. It was kick off Sunday and boy it was a exciting service. Afterwards I met Dave in Waterloo along with his work baseball team and had lunch with them. He was in a baseball tournament all weekend. After that we just relaxed for the rest of the day.

Work was a crazy one today. Why is it that Monday's always puts people in a grouchy mood? I had to deal with 2 angry men on the phone. Ahhhh, but I feel I successfully managed both phone calls well and that they ended their days feeling satisfied with my help. Well I hope that is the outcome anyway! Now I'm winding down and feeling very very tired. I'm thinking that I will crawl into bed.

And to that Goodnight.......

A Bug

I've been sick over the past 24 hours. Not sure what is up. But it started yesterday afternoon and then got worse in the evening where I threw up a couple of times. I slept alright, and this morning was sick again which is typical. While at work I started to get that "oh oh I might be sick again" feeling so I'm home now. I didn't want to risk the chance of hurling at work. I slept for a good 3 hours so far, and right now I'm feeling not so bad. The baby is moving quite happily, but when I was at work and it was doing it's dance it made me feel worse! I've got an appt. this Friday with my doctor, I'm really looking forward to it. Now I'm excited to see the doctor, where as before pregnancy, there was no reason to be excited. But now I get to see growth and hear the heartbeat and just get calm nerves when talking with him.

This weekend was great. The weather was miserable, but I had a good time. Friday night Dave and I registered at Babies R Us. It was overwhelming, but fun. I have to go back and register for the small stuff. At the time I didn't think I had to, but then Sally and Christa told me that if I didn't then people would look up the registry, not see those little things and just assume we have them already. So I'm kind of looking forward to going back.

Saturday I spent the day at my parents. Steve, Sally and the girls were out for the day too. We all went up to Ann's place to see Norma. There was a big horse show going on in which she was helping out with, so she toured us around the place for a bit. Then we headed back for lunch and later in the afternoon I went with Krista back up (Krista loves Norm) and she introduced us to all the horses and we fed them and hung out in the barn. It was so much fun.

Sunday Dave and I went to church and then we had Steve and Christa over for lunch. Then they came with us to the O'ville fair. It was fun. I saw Pastor Mark and Kimberly there and Fern! We stayed for a bit in the afternoon and when it poored we went into Walmart and Future Shop and wandered around. Then we went to East Side Mario's for dinner. Where yes, I indulged myself with a funnel cake for dessert. Yum Yum! Then we went back to the fair for the derby. It was freezing. My Dad and Benji and Steve met us and we all sat with them. (Where were you sitting Jay?)

And like I said, yesterday I was sick and I'm now here. I'll probably crawl back into bed for the afternoon. But tonight we're having Mike and Joy over for dinner. Hopefully I'll be fine by then.

With school back in, means all programs at church will be full swing. Adventure club starts next week, and I have to go to a meeting for that tomorrow, plus Christa and I were succesful at organizing and advertising the ladies shopping trip. It's gonna be a busy month!

Peaceful

There's something about the whole atmosphere at Scott's cottage. Once I got there I automatically felt at rest. Friday night we didn't do much. There was only 3 of us, Dave, Jay and myself. We just visited, played a little of outburst, and then went to bed. Scott and Gill didn't arrive until 12:30-1:00am so I didn't see them until the next morning. It was so lovely. Yvnonne arrived around 3:30 and that night we played games and talked. Sunday morning Scott seriously signed Yvonne and I up for door greeting at the church. We weren't sure if we needed to doubt or believe him, but sure enough we got there, and on the bulletin board was our names! We happily did that together, greeting complete strangers into their church that we don't attend! hahaha It was fun. There was swimming and boat riding, and some did the water skiing. I was so tempted for the tube, and had Dave blown it up, I probably would have justified myself into it. But I was a good girl, or so my Mom would tell me. She was nervous that I would do something like that!

Now it's Monday. Work was busy, I'm taking phones all day for this whole week. Plus my mind is jumping with all the things that I need to accomplish. Tonight I'm hoping to meet with Christa to plan this women's shopping trip for October. I have to make up invitations for the local girls to come to my place for a Signature Homestyles party that my Aunt wants me to host as she's becoming a new rep. That's the end of September. Then my Mom who is so excited about Baby, is hoping to plan for a baby shower with family members in October, which means Dave and I need to be on the ball and start making a list of things we need for this little one. Let alone think about the nursery! There's so much happening. All this makes me so tired!

Ahhh I'm gonna go and relax before I leave!

One More Day

Oh the weekend is almost here. I'm looking forward to a relaxing time away at Scott's cottage. I'm really looking forward to naps and boat rides! I have been so tired lately and I'm in need of some sort of thrill and since tubing is out, Scott better give me a good boat ride! This week has gone by really well that. Work is picking up for me as our department has a huge project that we just started into and I'll be busy working on that until I leave. I saw Lesya last Friday. That was great. She flies back to BC tomorrow. But it was great seeing her. We took a nice long stroll down her side road and then like two little girls we walked along a little creek in our shoes and stood in it laughing and talking. It was so nice. Then I was welcomed for dinner with the whole family. That was hilarious! Mr. Moore told me that I could possibly at present have both male and female parts. I love how things fascinate them!

Dave and I fostered another kitten over night, that's 2 in the past 2 weeks. Two of my friends wanted kittens for their families, so two little girls got adopted from the farm. What a better life for them! It was fun to have a kitten for a night or two. It really ticked off Hockley and Sunshine though! hehehe

Church league baseball is over for the season now. So our Thursday nights are free for a short while. Not for long I assume! With fall comes Small group and Adventure Club and for Dave more meetings and probably volleyball.

Next weekend is the O'ville fall fair. I probably will be there for it atleast one of the days. Norma is going to be in O'ville all weekend, so we're making plans to see eachother. Then if it all works out, I'll get to see the demolition derby and eat a funnel cake. Mmmmm funnel cakes! They better have them, if not I'm going to East Side Mario's 'cause I really want one!

wow Where did Summer go?

I'm having a difficult time with this date. Where has summer gone?
This is the baby quilt that we're going with. I love it, isn't it cute? Barnyard animals! Totally suitable I thought! Now the challenge is what colour to paint. I'm sure we'll coming up with some ideas.

Bright Red and Shiney

Yes, our new family vehicle arrived home yesterday. Dave traded in his truck and upgraded to a Dodge Ram Megacab. It's a lovely red colour which I adore, but it's a monster truck! It's huge. I love it. When Baby arrives, I'll need a step ladder to get up there with it! hahaha. We spent months discussing which vehicle to upgrade, and because my car is already baby compatible, we figured the truck was what needed to go. Also my car will have a longer life I think rather than what his truck would have had. I'll be the driver because of the whole save on gas issue, but this won't happen until Dave is comfortable driving standard into work.
This week at work has been difficult. Not because of the amount of work there is, but after spending a relaxing week of naps and early nights, my body got used to that amount of rest and is now protesting against not getting it. My eyes are so heavy at present. But I carry on.
Other exciting news this week is Christa and Steve finally made it public knowledge that they too are expecting. We've known for some time now, but were asked to keep it on the down low until she had her first doctor appointment. She's due March 3. It's so neat because our children will only be 3 months apart. It is always exciting talking baby talk. Even the guys get into it sometimes too.
If I get on the ball, I'll try and post some pictures of the new beast and then some! I feel like I have accomplished nothing lately and there's sooo much on my plate that needs to be organized! What will I ever do?

Week of Peace and Reflection and Food!

We arrived home last night after a full day of driving. I had a great week. It started last Thursday night when we departed Elmira around 11pm. Steve and Christa were driving Dave and I with their truck and utility trailer. Kris and Shannon had rented a mini van and Sharlene and Jason had rented a SUV. Dave and I lasted as far as Barrie when I bailed on their ride and joined Kris and Shannon. We had a very safe drive up and arrived in Agawa Bay roughly around 10:30am. Between the 9 of us we had 2 camp sites. Steve and Christa was on ours. Friday we napped and had a good supper.

Now with camping comes lots of food. Christa and I were terrible as we totally stoocked up on all the junk you could possibly imagine. Chocolate bars, candy, chips, cookies. It was great! I'm totally afraid to step on the scale to see the damage of this past week, as yes the wieght has begun to be put on. As much as 18lbs so far. I am 23 wks along now, in a few more days I'll be 6mths.

Anyway, we had great weather. On Sunday I think I over did myself with a hike and then a long swim, as Monday I was pretty sick. I lost both breakfast and lunch and that is still with taking my medicine! I rested a great deal that day. Then of course after feeling heaps better a sinus cold settled in for the rest of my time there. But despite that all, I enjoyed every second there.

I can't describe how beautiful it is there. The water alone blows me away. I can swim out as far as my arms would take me and still see the bottom, yet it was so very deep. The sunsets are always pretty too.

Spending the week with these friends was awesome too. You do so much bonding and laughing, it's hard to leave. Dave, Shannon and Sharlene are all cousins, but it was like camping with your family it was so fun. Their Aunt and Uncle Lorraine and Maynard was also there this week, in their luxery trailer at the other end of the park, we had lots of fun. Dave was able to do some hiking with Maynard, as I the pregnant one was incapable of keeping up with him. The first hike I did that Sunday was a very short one, along the rocks of the water to see indian pictographs and the steps back up to the parking lot killed me. I was so sad with myself wondering how on earth I let myself get this way. But I was reassured when I was told being pregnant can tire you out more than normal.

The week had some great laughs and memorable times. I think my favourite times was just being with everyone at the camp fires or at the water. I also enjoyed the trip home. I was totally dreading the drive home. But we had a great time. The four of us talked a lot, which made the time go faster. We stopped in Sudbury for awhile and found an East Side Mario's for lunch.

Oh and the cool thing too, was just before heading into Parry Sound, a big black bear ran across the road in front of us. It was so awesome! Dave also had an accident with a pop and candy that made me cry I was laughing so hard.

I'm sad the week is over. Today we will spend it cleaning up our stuff. Then we are going out to test drive some trucks, woohoo! I love doing that. We'll also buy something more for Baby, if not the bedding for the room, perhaps the stroller/car seat.

This week

Well this week has gone fast. Every Monday of my full week at work, I tell mysel that it's going to be the longest week ever. Yet I'm here and it's Friday already. That means I only have 4 days of work left until my week away. Out of those 4 days, Monday I have to leave the office for my first OBGYN visit, and Thursday is our Employee Appreciation Day where we only have to work the morning, then we get the afternoon off to hang out at a golf course.
Anyway, to start the week off, our stupid Fire Alarm starting beeping at us, we figured we just needed to replace the battery, but at 1:30 in the morning, to discover we need a 9volt battery sucks! Who made that?! So I bought some batteries the next day and tried to replace it, and it didn't work, it just kept beeping. So Dave turned the breaker off for the darn thing. His parents were over on the Monday night too to put up our new microwave. It's an "above the stove" one. It looks cool. Now we have more counter space.
The next thing exciting that happened was early Thursday morning at around 3:30am. I was startled by the noise so I got up, and here is my Dave laying there killing himself laughing. Laughing like I've never heard him before. It was a combination of giggles and outloud laughing following by deep breaths. I watched for a short while before I rubbed his arm and asked "Dave are you sleeping?" He kind of slowly came too and I asked "What's so funny?" and with his eyes still closed and laughing he blurts out "he crapped his pants, ah hahahaha". So now I'm laughing a bit and asked "what? who did?" and Dave in his laughter says "Mike, we were in the get away car and he filled his pants he was so scared" After he said that he really came too and stopped the laughing. It was the funniest thing ever! In the morning I asked him if he remembered what happened, and he remembered his dream, but he doesn't remember the whole laughing out loud stuff. He doesn't believe me when I tell him what I heard!
I haven't heard from my doctor about my last ultrasound. I called on Wednesday and the report wasn't in my file yet. So the receptionist told me to try today and see if it's there. Plus my doctor is on holiday for 2 weeks, so if the report isn't there today, they told me they would get another doctor to take a look for me. But I still feel baby moving, so that's good.

anxiousness

I'm anxious this evening. My ultrasound didn't go too well. Baby was sleeping at first, crawled up in a ball. The techinician had a difficult time trying to get the necessary shots the doctor wanted. It was a different lady. And at first she only took me in, and I couldn't see a thing, where as last time Dave came in right with me and was able to watch everything. I think I was in there with her alone for a good 35 mins. She had me get up and go to the bathroom, then lay on my side. She just couldn't get good enough shots. When Dave did come in, he was only in for a few minutes when she said that this time wasn't gonna work and that the doctor will probably call us and have us come again for another. I'm worried.

I know I shouldn't be, and Sally reassured me that things are just fine. Sometimes it's difficult for technicians to get good ultrasounds. So I'm trying to focus on the positive.

Now I'm playing nurse for my husband who is currently suffering with a migraine. He's barfing, and it's not good for me to smell it. YUCK! I may hurl. I think I'm going to find myself a popsicle and watch a bit of tv.

Not myself tonight

I am soooo tired. I didn't sleep very well last night. I made it through today. It went by fast which was amazing. Cheryl, my co-worker, caught me off gaurd with something so funny that I had to get to the bathroom real fast! So that was good.

Then I get home and people are calling about baseball, wondering if it's cancelled, and then finding out it is cancelled, and then calling more people. I fell asleep on the couch for 1/2 an hour. Then Dave was in and out of the house, and I just don't feel like my normal self. Probably because I'm over tired. So to avoid making him bored, I willing let him go and play with Kris tonight. It's funny how he asks me those silly questions.

Tomorrow is my half day and I'm going for another ultrasound. I hope everything is alright. This place last time screwed up my schedule time, then I called today to confirm my appointment for tomorrow and they again screwed telling me that I missed it because it was today! Luckily for them they had a cancellation for tomorrow afternoon! Now I'm just worried that they won't have the requisition that the doctor faxed them! We'll see how it goes!

Can you believe there is only one more full week of July left? Amazing.....

The rains came a tumbling down

It is storming out there right now. It's kind of neat to just sit and watch the lightening and rain down pour.

I was church camping this past weekend in Durham. It was lots of fun. We invited Benji to join us, which he did, and we shared his monster size tent. Kris & Shannon, Sharlene & Jason and Steve & Christa were our neighbours. We shared meals where we each took one meal to prepare. It was very hot, so we spent alot of time in the water. Kris brought some water balloons and it was so funny to watch as he tossed a few at our Pastor. Then the next thing I see is Pastor George walking across the field toward us with this huge mega super soaker. It was the biggest I've ever seen! Behind him came his wife Sue, with 2 smaller guns, one for each hand! It was so funny. The guys had a blast while their wives sat and watched.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I will be 28 years old! Wow eh! Dave is taking me out to the movies and then on Wednesday my parents are coming for a visit.

I hear the pillow calling my name! It wants me to come and rest my head on it.....

Feeling Tired & Grey Hair

I am having terrible times sleeping these days. I'm so restless. And if I do get a great sleep I usually wake up in some bad dream. I realize that I'm getting good practise for when the baby arrives, but did it have to happen this soon?

I'm also starting to see the odd grey hair on my head. I can pull them out ususally, but is this a sign?

Tonight I watched my Dave play baseball. It was a good game, they won. He is now currently at church for a building meeting. There's nothing on tv, I'm kind of bored. I haven't been bored in a long time. I kind of like it.

I think I may hit my pillow soon. But apart of me is debating to stay up and see if I can make myself so tired that I'll get a full night's sleep.

I talked to my niece tonight on the phone. She was so cute and really talked up a storm. I couldn't make out all the things she was telling me, but apparently she one day wants me to come watch her swimming lessons, she's moving up to a gator soon. She's so easily excited about things, and I love that about kids!

I think Hockley wants some attention. I'll see if I can get some cuddles from her tonight.

Very Exciting!

Friday was my half day. Dave took the afternoon off as well to join me for my Doctor's appointment and ultrasound in Orangeville. It was neat. At the doctor's appointment she did the heartbeat again, and told me as far as she's concerned, everything seems healthy and normal. I may not see her from now on out as my next appointment is in Kitchener with the OBGYN.

While this was happening I had to go pee sooooo bad. So with the Doctor pushing on me to get the heartbeat was hard enough. Then I had to go from there to the ultrasound place. There too was so hard on my poor bladder. I couldn't wait comfortably and then the technician did a whole series of shots, while pushing again, before letting me go and releave myself!

It was so amazing to see the baby in me. To see the heart pumping and working, and to see little feet moving. It was hard to make certain things out, even still, looking at the pictures we were given it's hard to tell. I think it looks like a little alien.

The technician was surprised at my measurements because I'm only 18wks along, but with the baby's measurments she works it out to be 19 & 1/2 weeks along, a whole matter of 10 days. So her report says my due date is November 27. But who knows?!?! Deb told me to just keep my normal count, which I shall do, and just take comfort in knowing that I have a big healthy baby in me! Those were the technician's words, "either you mis-calculated your due date, or you're having a big one!" Lets hope by the end it won't be too big! hahaha.

I was surprised when she told me about how big it was, as I'm still not showing really. Sally tells me that I just have really good stomach muscles, with all the previous swimming I did and biking. I feel bloated half the time and just wish I could look pregnant, but I'm coping, and glad in a way that I haven't had to spend money yet on maternity clothes.

Yawn

Oh dear. I'm so tired. I slept most of Monday away, and I am now paying for it because I had a hard time sleeping last night. Yikes, now I have to leave for work in a couple of minutes, and I am sooo tired I don't know how I will make it through the day. I'm praying that it will be a fast day.

We had a good weekend. Sunday was the best day, we went to the farm. We swam in the pond, and went for a long 4-wheeler ride. There are 6 kittens in the barn too which was entertaining.

Back to the grind today. Yuck! I hope I can do it......

Always going

I can't believe how fast time goes by. This past weekend was wonderful. First of all the weather couldn't have been better. On Friday I went to Orangeville in the afternoon and visited with Deb. Then I met with my family and had supper out with them at Harvey's. I haven't been to Harvey's in quite some time, I really enjoyed it. Then I went to BookLore to tell Tracey my news. That was funny, because she asked me what was new. I told her I was going to have a baby. Her reaction was so funny. She asked me if I was pregnant now?? hahaha I laughed and told her "no, but maybe I'll be tomorrow!" She was in shock.

Saturday was a busy day of running to Orangeville for Brooke's birthday party, then back to Elmira for Mason's birthday party. They both were a success and they both were adorable. Brooke was especially adorable in her cute danty dress!

Sunday was fun too. Dave and I both went to church for our final Sunday School. I was with the children downstairs while he was upstairs learning how to live a spartan life (financial wise). Then Steve and Christa skipped normal church with us and we headed to the beach for the day. We first went and bought some meat and buns to have a picnic lunch there. It was a bit cool there. None of us went swimming, but Christa and I ended up with pretty heated burns on our legs. Although mine are better today. Tomorrow they will probably be really itchy.

Last night I went to the church for a women's ministry night. Our church never really had a women's ministry so they started one and last night was the kick off. It was so much fun. We were all asked to bring a salad of some kind and a hat with a story behind it. There was like 50 women that showed up ranging from teenagers to 80yrs of age. I was asked to read the scripture of the night which was cool and I sat with some ladies who I didn't know so well so it was definately a fun night. Especially seeing some of the older ladies who I could adopt as Grandma's in their special hats, and hearing the stories about their hats. It was so neat.

My hubby is sick with the flu, he's been off for the past two days, so I'm taking good care of him. hehehe

I love this band

Ok it's not a secret how much I love U2. I'm listening to them right now, and their song Miracle Drug. I pulled out the words to see if I could make a meaning out of the lyrics, and I'm still amazed at how spiritual they still are. I pray that in the end with all their searching, that they find God. I'm in love with this song, it's on repeat! hahaha.

So I've had a bit of a rollercoaster weekend. Saturday I cleaned the house thoroughly. Actually I got up first thing and ran to Waterloo to Zehrs, then cleaned the house. Then after that, Dave and I went to Kitchener to Toys R Us. We needed to get a couple of gifts for Brooke and Mason who are turning 1 next week. While there we bought a bassinet :) It made me happy to finally get something for Baby. I even put it together when I got home. It's cute with lambs on it. Then we went out for the evening to a buck and doe for Jason and Amanda who go to our church, and we're going to their wedding this July. It was fun, I love these types of events.

Whoa I forgot that on Friday night Steve, Christa, Dave and I went to the movies to see The Break Up. I didn't like it so much. While there Cindy and Lesa were there too, so it was a group event. I bought I big Diet Coke thinking that Dave would share. Well he wasn't drinking any. I was drinking lots. I had to go pee so bad near the end of the movie. But I was stubborn and didn't want to leave the movie to go. So I sat uncomfortable for a bit, until I felt something. It was an odd fluttering feeling just below my belly button. I've never felt anything like that before. It was a cool feeling. I was thinking that it could have been Baby. Then I talked to my Mom about it and she too believes it was Baby. Because my bladder was extra sensitive to any movement, I think Baby was making those flutters! I haven't felt anything since, but still it's neat to think that is what it was.

Sunday my family came over for the day. Steve wanted to watch Australia vs. Brazil on the big screen, and because it was Father's Day, we did a special lunch. It was nice having them all over. Then after Steve and Sally left, my parents, Denise and Benji and I went out walking around the area. We looked in 3 model homes which were pretty nice. But after they all left I got really sick. I had a really bad headache. And Dave was a sweetheart and got me McDonald's for supper. The first time during this pregnancy, Mcdonald's did not stay with me. I ate it, then slept a bit, got up, told Dave I didn't feel good. And out came everything! It proceeded with continuous vomiting that night. I didn't get any sleep. So I stayed home from work on Monday and slept all day. I've never slept that much during a day I don't think!



Today is Wednesday. Val and I escaped the office and ran across the field to Tim Hortons. I got an iced-cap which made me very giggly. Before this had happened, at lunch we saw a ground hog and Cindy said she was going to beat the sh#$ out of it and show people how she can kill rodents. Well after my iced-cap, I recalled this comment and got the visuals happening, and I couldn't control my laughter. I pictured her rolling around the lawn with a "baby"(none the less) ground hog, wrestling it! Ahhhh to work in an office. This is a typical day there. I can't explain the experiences of one, and if you've seen Office Space, which I can relate too, you may not understand it either!

Tomorrow I will be 16wks (4 months) pregnant. I'm still wearing my normal clothes. And some of them are still loose on me. Dave said he's stepped on the scale and he's gained 11 lbs. Poor guy, he's putting the pounds on for me, as I think I'm still struggling. Well no, I've had a good couple of weeks overall, so I think I must be up. I'm not looking forward to the "in-between" stage where maternity clothes don't fit well and my clothes just don't fit at all. I hope that I will wake up one morning and just have a big belly! hahahaha, that way I won't have to go through that in-between stage! What a dream.

It's been a tough week around here. Sunday we got a call from Christa telling us that Sam (Steve's cousin and good friend) was killed in a motorcycle accident. I only knew Sam briefly, first meeting him at Steve and Christa's wedding rehersal as he was in the party with Dave. He was a very funny guy! I would then see him occasionally afterwards at their place. He was only 27 years old. Steve is having a difficult time dealing with it. I have been trying to encourage Dave to call him, ask him if he wants to throw a ball around and so on, but Dave says No! Ahhhh. Guys are wierd! Tonight we went to the visitation, and I had a hard time keeping it together. There's something when you see a guy cry. Now Steve wasn't crying, but he openingly talked about how he was feeling, and he reached out and got a hug from Dave, and that touched me.

I've been thinking this week about how shocking this all is, and even I can't believe that I'll never see Sam again. There's a lot of younger guys who looked up to Sam that are struggling with this same fact, and I just pray that in all of this, may all these young people who were so impressionable, turn to God rather than get angry with him. Sam was a christian and I believe he's with God now, and that even though it's hard to believe, it was God's timing that Sam be with him now. It's impossible for us to understand why God does things, but because of our faith, we know that he is in control and we need to trust him. All that being said, it's only human to get frustrated with God. He does love us, and he offers us amazing grace.

So tomorrow I endure one more afternoon, as I will go with Dave to the funeral. I've been to one other funeral for a guy who left at a young age and it was tough, this one too will be very tough.

Windy Friday

So I'm sitting here at work, with nothing to do, only to watch the minutes count down to noon since it's my half day. I don't want to start anything new because, well I don't have anything to start.
I'm still sick. Last night I was doing fine. I ate some fruit and crackers, then went to a baseball game. Afterwards we all went to Dairy Queen to have dinner, I had a yummy hamburger and onion rings. We all splurged and had ice cream after. On the drive home, I was complaining to Dave, saying "ohhhhhh I ate way too much." When in reality, it wasn't too much, as I didn't have dinner before hand. Then when we pulled up to the house, I got out of truck and told Dave "oh dear, my dinner is not going to stay for long." He just smiled and said I should just go lay down. Well I just made to our bathroom upstairs when the whole meal came out! The only thing I thought about was, "man what a waste of money" .
I'm wearing flip flops to work today, just got an email from one of the executives of the company to remind all of us that Flip Flops are not allowed at work, they are for campgrounds and beaches, not a business. Jeepers! It's casual day man!
Well I have 13 mins left, then I'm going home, posting this on my blog, have lunch and then find the local MDS clinic to get my blood tested.
Tomorrow I'm off to a Blue Jay game with Dave, Benji and Steve. I'm looking forward to it. I got the tickets from my boss for free, and they are really good seats apparently.
Hope you all are having a good day!

Blessings

This past weekend was a beautiful reminder of how many blessings God has given me. He showed me in my friends, in people I met and in the speaker who shared with us. I'm a very blessed girl.

I just wanted to thank those who took care of me on Saturday when I was feeling my worse. It meant a lot to me. It's public now, I'm carrying a little child in me. Just the other day I was reading Psalm 139 where it says :
For you created my inmost being, you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

It's almost impossible to comprehend that God has this little baby in his sight before I even knew Dave. I'm excited to see God's plan now unfold for this child before our eyes. It's hard to know God's plan for my life, but now I can watch how he unfolds the plans for this little one.

I heard baby's heart beat on Friday and it was so exciting! And I am starting to see Dave get more excited, he rubs my tummy and he makes me giggle when it comes to the whole name issue.

It's time for me to go to bed!

My new Casting Crowns cd is so uplifting! Thanks for the recommendation!

the heat is finally on

Well I've been enjoying this great weather. We've already got the a/c running! Today was Monday. Hmm what else can I say? Tomorrow is Dave's birthday. I feel kind of bad because I didn't plan anything for him. I'm sure it doesn't matter to him, but to me it's odd because it's the first time ever that I haven't planned something for him. I'm getting lazy!

Tonight I think I may go for a swim. I'll see though, I'm kind of tired just thinking about it!

As much as I love

It's been a long while since I've sat down at this computer to update my blog. As much as I love reading everyone's blog and I do get excited when there is new ones to read, I myself hate updating this thing. Well not hate, but because I'm busy at work all day on a computer, I have no desire to come home and use a computer for personal use. I would update my blog at work if I could, but it's one site then have blocked. That and Ebay,....can you believe that Deb!?!?! hahaha.

So I had a nice long weekend. I didn't do much, but complain about the really crappy weather. Saturday Dave and I went to a greenhouse to get flowers, but couldn't plant them because it was too cold, poor flowers!

We did go and see Over the Hedge Saturday night. It was a cute movie. The best part was there was a man behind me that would have uncontrolable ourbursts of laughter, which would get me starting until I was crying! Yes that was the best part!

Sunday we went to my parents in the afternoon and stayed for my brother's show of fireworks. It was fun. There's new kittens in the barn and that is always cute. The funny thing is, there's two sets of kittens and both mothers had them in the same place, so they are both feeding both litters. Needless to say that nothing has changed in the relationship of our barn cats, they are getting nuttier with every new litter!

Yesterday I made a big meal for 8 people. I made chili and a loaf of garlic bread. And then rice to with it. The men all were golfing in the afternoon while us ladies sat around and chatted and watched tv. It was fun. Now tonight is a baseball night, thank goodness the weather is nicer!

Catch ya later....

Tonight is not so bad

Well I spent the weekend at my parents. It was good being surrounded by people the whole time. But then when I got home last night, I suffered withdrawl and cried a lot for Dave. I know it's crazy, but it's terrible when you long for someone. So I planned my week to keep me busy and preoccupied so I wouldn't have another night like last night. Tonight Lesa came over when I got home from work and we watched Alias. Actually we're still watching it, she had to run out for half an hour to get a massage, but she'll be back to watch the rest.

While at the farm on Saturday, we were lucky to see a calf being born. With the assistance of my Dad and two brothers that is. They had to pull it out, and man it sure looked like work! We also celebrated my parents anniversary on Sunday by going to Dragon's Paradise in O'ville. Sunday afternoon I went with my dad and brother over to what we call "the other farm" It's a farm that was on the same property that Dr. Lindsay owns, but sold to one of his daughters. I liked going there as a kid because it was like seeing history right in front of you. There was a beautiful stone house and old barn and shed there. Now they are extending the house and making it more modern (with a indoor bathroom instead of the outhouse they've used since I was born!) and we got to tour it. They have done such an amazing job of restoring the old part, it's so beautiful. It was a visit back to childhood for me.

Dave is having a wonderful time in Vienna and is good at rubbing it in. I'm so grateful that he is having a chance to relax and see that part of the world, we were worried that he was going to have to work extra long days to get this project done, but he's been really lucky. I'm just hoping this week goes fast for me so I get him back sooner than later!

Well, tomorrow I'm headed to Mike and Joy's for dinner, then out to an Adventure Club helper appreciation party. So that will be good. My parents are coming for the evening on Wednesday, and then Thursday is baseball. Friday my Dave comes home to me! yeah!!

I hope everyone is enjoying this amazing weather!

Oh so lonely

I managed to get through this afternoon. My Dave was wisked away by a big white stretch Limo, I should have taken a picture. I was strong for him and didn't shed a full tear until he closed the door. I want him to have a great time there, so hopefully he will enjoy himself.

The past weekend was wonderful. Lord of the Rings was a great show. I really really liked it. The weather was great too, and he spoiled me. He got me a new ring. It's different looking, hard to describe, but it is white gold with 3 little diamonds on it. It's quite lovely.

Tonight Shannon and Kris are taking pitty on me and are having me over for dinner and to watch Lost. Tomorrow I have baseball, and Friday I'm heading to Orangeville. I think I'll be ok. I find the hardest part is the mornings. But again, I shall survive!

Spring again

It’s Thursday, and it’s pretty nice outside. I only know this because for lunch we walked over to New Orlean’s Pizza. This week has been a better week compared to last. I’m thankful for that. Tomorrow is my half day which is nice. I think I am going to Orangeville for the afternoon. I’ll do the Friday night ritual with my parents and the whole family now!
This weekend Dave and I are celebrating our 2nd anniversary. We are going to Toronto. Saturday we’re leaving in the morning. We’re going to see the Lord of the Rings play, then we’re staying at the Hilton. I hope it will be fun. Saturday night we’ll probably find a cool restaurant to eat in. Then on Sunday before heading home, we’ll probably check out the Eaton’s Centre or something like that.
When Wednesday rolls around next week, I’ll be depressed. My Davey is leaving me for 10 whole days to go to Vienna with work. I hate when he goes, and it’s so far away this time, that phone calls won’t be feasible! My friends and small group have said they’ll take care of me, so I’m grateful for that. It will be a long 10 days L
Oh tonight I’ll have to catch up on my television viewing, with watching Alias, Lost AND Survivor. Hmm for some reason I don’t think I’ll get see all of them!

Hockey Playoffs are here

The only reason why I know this is because my husband has got his Calgary Flames Flags on his truck. That and he laughed pretty good about the Leafs not making it.

Today has been a pretty blah day. I've been feeling like crap most of the time. But I'm well now to write in here. I really don't have much to say. Only that it was a very very long week. I'm glad it's finished and that the weekend (although almost gone) is here.

Dave is currently out golfing. He is so happy that he's able to do this again. I'm happy for him, but I'm left home alone. Which is probably good because of the way I feel, I don't want to do much.

Will the sun come out today?

Easter has come and gone

I'm amazed how fast time really goes. It's Sunday night already! So what did I do this Easter weekend? It all started on Thursday night when Dave and I went to Orangeville. We ate at the new Angels Diner, which was so packed (it was after 7pm too) and I really liked the food. Then we made pit stops at Payless Shoes and Future Shop, where I picked up a new pair of flip flops and Dave bought a wireless keyboard for his xbox!

Then at the farm we visited with my famiy and went to sleep. Benji gave up his room for us which was sweet, but man his bed is hard!!! Friday morning rolled around. We got ready and left for the Good Friday service at the Baptist church. It was so great, I have always loved that service and probably always will. I got to see Pastor Mark too, which was so great.

That afternoon we hung out at the farm and celebrated Benji's Birthday. We went for this really long walk, it was so great. I had a good laugh, but at the expense of someone's pain. I'm going to be terrible at being a sympathic Mom. Krista was busy telling me a story while walking through the hardwood bush, when she triped on a rather large rock, and all I could see was her face go straight down while her feet came straight up! She was crying of course and there I was down beside her laughing! Poor thing!

Saturday wasn't too eventful, Dave was busy for part of it, while I crawled on the couch for a couple of hours. Then later that night, we went out with Shannon, Kris & Mason, and met up with Mike and Joy and Steve and Christa and had dinner at Moosewanooskies. It was yummy! Then Dave and I went back to Steve and Christa's and had a bon fire, but I was freezing!

This day was a great one. Dave and I got up early and went to the Sunrise service for 8am. Then afterwards had breakfast that was provided by one of the small groups. Then the regular service was a baptism service. There was only one boy who came forward today. He is 11 years old, and he told Pastor George that he needed to be baptised because he was a Christian. It was as simple as that. I get teary eyed at these services, but on Easter, there was something extra special. On celebrating God's amazing resurrection this little boy out of obedience to Jesus "needed" to be baptised. I love Easter.

After church, we again had a restful afternoon, Mike and Joy were over for dinner, and we just got back from playing baseball! That's right, in two weeks the season begins! We were catching and batting, and I must say it felt really good. I'm looking forward to playing again. Only one team this year! 3 was a bit much!

I think now I'm going to curl up on the couch and watch some tv and nibble on my Easter chocolate that Dave gave me. I hope that you all had a great weekend.

Christ has risen. He has risen indeed!

Work day is almost finished.....

Well I have a new home at work. This morning, my pal from across the wall, went on and on about Michael Buble. I mean it really should be Bubble, but that’s beside the point. I had enough of hearing about him on the phone. I felt like saying "No Buble, no Buble, please I beg you!" (From P&P, Mr. Bennent and Lace!) So just like that I called the computer tech guy and told him I was ready to move when ever he could do it. So now I’m here in my little QUIET cubical, beside a wall. Funny though, now I think I may miss that laughter that she brought into my little world there. But Life goes on!
My Davey is going to Austria on business leaving May 2, for 10 whole days. I can’t believe he’s dumping me for work! Hahaha, poor guy it’s not like he has a choice and besides, what an amazing experience he’ll have, I’m just jealous that I don’t get to experience it with him. But I shall do my best at rubbing it in to him that he’ll be missing out on his first 2 games of the church baseball season – Sucker! (doesn’t work to well does it?!?!)
I’m looking forward to this long weekend. I’m so so tired these days. Maybe there will be a day or two that I could sleep in or something.
Chinese food is good for lunch once in a while…..

I am tired

This will be a brief update, but I just thought I would let you know what's been happening these past few days! We've been busy bees! Our house is painted, both the living room and loft are done, and I hate painting! But it's over with and done now. I've posted a pic of just the living room, before with primer and after the final product. I haven't got a shot of the loft yet, but in time I will! Hope you were able to enjoy this beautiful day!!

Feels like Home

This past Friday was a wonderful time. Having all my friends over to catch up and watch movies was so great. I find it amazing how a friendship can pick up right where it left off, even though in some cases, a year and a half has past before seeing eachother. I also find it amazing that the comfort and ease you have with eachother never goes away. It felt just like that "home" feeling.

Saturday was a busy crazy and wonderful day! Going to the Maple Syrup Festival and then having my family over for the rest of the day. It was really nice. Saturday night, I went to bed quite early because I was tired from the night before. (I didn't fall asleep until atleast 1:30am).

Today Dave and I went to church and then had McDonalds for lunch with Christa. Then Christa and I played Moms for the afternoon because we babysat Mason for Shannon and Kris. Christa wanted to look in the model homes around this area, so we spent the afternoon with Mason doing that. Boy I need to work on my arm muscles to hold that kid! My arms are sore! Some of the homes are amazing and lovely, and expensive. Ahhh to dream. I even encountered rudeness as we went into one model and the sales rep stopped us at the door and asked us our price range, we didn't give her one told her we just wanted to look, she then proceeded to tell us to hold on the Mason please, as all the furniture is on loan! THE NERVE!!!

Anyway, I need to go as it looks like my husband has just gotten home with company!